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  <title>Ohimechan with friends~</title>
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    <title>Community!</title>
    <published>2007-05-26T22:51:30Z</published>
    <updated>2007-05-26T22:51:46Z</updated>
    <content type="html">&lt;center&gt;Okay so this happened mainly because I (&lt;b&gt;Sohee&lt;/b&gt;) is too lazy to log out/in from two different accounts all the time! XD From my personal lj that's &lt;span class='ljuser' lj:user='ikujinashi' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://ikujinashi.livejournal.com/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://ikujinashi.livejournal.com/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;ikujinashi&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt; and this one (&lt;span class='ljuser' lj:user='ohime_chan' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://ohime-chan.livejournal.com/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://ohime-chan.livejournal.com/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;ohime_chan&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt;) so instead of doing that, she got the brilliant idea to create a community where she will also put up other fics than just &lt;b&gt;Yabeki&lt;/b&gt;. At the moment she and &lt;b&gt;Aiko&lt;/b&gt; (&lt;span class='ljuser' lj:user='tsukimiso' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://tsukimiso.livejournal.com/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif' alt='[info]' width='17' height='17' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://tsukimiso.livejournal.com/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;tsukimiso&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt;) are writing two other pretty big fics, one &lt;b&gt;Ryoki&lt;/b&gt; (Ryo/[Uchi]Hiroki) based while the other one is &lt;b&gt;Pikame&lt;/b&gt;. Those will be put up there fairly soon, at least chapter 1. :3&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So please join &lt;span class='ljuser' lj:user='aisoshoko' style='white-space: nowrap;'&gt;&lt;a href='http://community.livejournal.com/aisoshoko/profile'&gt;&lt;img src='http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif' alt='[info]' width='16' height='16' style='vertical-align: bottom; border: 0; padding-right: 1px;' /&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;a href='http://community.livejournal.com/aisoshoko/'&gt;&lt;b&gt;aisoshoko&lt;/b&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;/span&gt;? ^^' And feel free to promote it too if you want, because I? I am not good with that kind of stuff. :3 Yoroshiku and see you over there? XD&lt;/center&gt;</content>
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    <title>ohime_chan @ 2006-11-07T05:48:00</title>
    <published>2006-11-07T04:48:11Z</published>
    <updated>2006-11-07T04:56:10Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">&lt;b&gt;Title:&lt;/b&gt; I love you, bastard.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Author:&lt;/b&gt; Ohimechan&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Pairing:&lt;/b&gt; Ryouchi&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Genre:&lt;/b&gt; Angst&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Rating:&lt;/b&gt; PG&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Notes:&lt;/b&gt; First one-shot in the longest time ever. I don't even know why, I'm not so proud of it actually. Haha. No one beta-read this either, sucks. ;( Anyway. I wanted to write something by myself even though I'm not good at it. So yay here it is.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Trying to understand, I try so hard to understand every single word you said. The words that echo in my head and I try over and over to make sense out of it. But no matter how hard I try it just won't work, I just can't for the life of me, make sense out of these words. You do realize you've made me cry a litre of tears, don't you?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;You told me a reason, I know you did. Even so I can't remember it and I don't know how to deal with it. You do realize you're my everything, don't you? That since the first moment I saw you, the first words we spoke - ever since then I looked up to you. That no matter what you said I couldn't help but like it. It made me somewhat warm inside. Even if it was just a short hello, at least you took notice in me. You noticed that  I was there and that was enough. It was enough for a while, for a while that turned out to be a few years and I thought it would last forever. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;When did I do something wrong? Because it surely has to be because of me that you decided to move on, right? I can change! I know I can and if it's for you, you know I'd do it. If I'd talk to any of my other friends they'd call me desperate. I don't think so. I'm crying and I miss you. I miss your words and I want to hear them more often, is that called being desperate? I just love you so much. Why can't you love me like you used to?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Did I hurt you that bad with my mistake? I know I did a mistake, I know I would have to take a hard punishment for it and I know that no matter what happens people will always remember. You will remember too but back then you said it was okay. You said it was okay and that's why I thought it was okay too. That everyone makes mistakes. Even you makes mistakes. I would like to think that this is a mistake too, that you didn't mean to break up with me for real, or did you? Were you just pulling one of your really mean and lame jokes? If so this is enough, I'm fine. I can't take it any longer, please tell me you're joking?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;But you're not are you? No you aren't and I don't know how to deal with it. I thought we were happy together, you know. I thought we were happy even though you were all busy and that day when you called me and said that you wanted to see me - I thought you were going to say that you had missed me. I had missed you. I still miss you. You don't miss me do you?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;My friend says I should hate you, I want to hate you. People usually hate when they are being dumped don't they? I wish I could hate you. I want to hate you hate you hate you hate you. But every time I tell myself I should do so I end up loving you more. Why don't you want me anymore? Will it change next year? Will it change when I get back to be on stage, when we will have to spend time together, will you come to love me again?&lt;br /&gt;I hope so. I want you to love me. Maybe by then I will have stopped loving you and I can tell you no. I want you to feel this pain I'm feeling right now. At the same time I want nothing more but to have you here next to me. Why am I being so mean? I think you taught me bad.&lt;br /&gt;Bastard.&lt;br /&gt;</content>
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    <title>Yabeki - Part 2 - Chapter 14</title>
    <published>2006-07-12T01:21:38Z</published>
    <updated>2006-08-23T04:24:46Z</updated>
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    <content type="html">&lt;b&gt;Title:&lt;/b&gt; Yabeki&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Author:&lt;/b&gt; Ohimechan &amp;amp; Aiko&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Pairing:&lt;/b&gt; Jin/Kazuya, Tomohisa/Kazuya, Ryo/Uchi, Shige/Koyama &lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Characters:&lt;/b&gt; X Group: Nishikido Ryo, Yamashita Tomohisa, Koyama Keiichiro, Kato Shigeaki. Y Group: Akanishi Jin, Kamenashi Kazuya, Tanaka Koki, Nakamaru Yuichi. Still in no group: Kusano Hironori.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Disclaimer:&lt;/b&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohime-chan.livejournal.com/459.html"&gt;General Disclaimer and stuff.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Genre:&lt;/b&gt; School fic, angst, love, hate - all that stuff.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Rating:&lt;/b&gt; PG13 (I think? I don't know!)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Word Count:&lt;/b&gt; 11 378&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Notes:&lt;/b&gt; So now let's continue! Time's passed - two weeks to be exact. What happened, you wonder? Well, click and read and find out. ^_~ the chapters will continue from 13 and up.. just because it gets confusing otherwise.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;&lt;big&gt;Yabeki&lt;/big&gt; - Chapter 14&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;So time had passed and now the day Nishikido Ryo had dreaded above all others was finally here. His stupid (though really quite wealthy) uncle's leaving party.&lt;br /&gt;Having made sure to tell Yamashita's sister (whose name he couldn't quite remember at that point) not to talk to anyone, he'd gotten them in and managed to find somewhere to sit without being bothered. The Nishikido family weren't all too interested in Ryo - so long as he was continuing to live up to expectations, which his father assured them he was, then he wasn't important. Ryo liked it that way, but it made for a ridiculously boring time - and checking his watch, he confirmed that it'd be another hour before he could make his escape without being rude.&lt;br /&gt;"I'm bored." he complained to nobody imparticular, folding his arms.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Rina however wasn't even close to bored. She was way too excited to realize that there was nothing to do, because she was - after all, with Nishikido Ryo! Oh how excited she had got once Tomohisa had told her that Ryo, RYO, wanted her to be HIS date. So because of this she'd spent a ridiculous amount of money on her clothes and make-up for tonight.&lt;br /&gt;"I'm not!" She replied cheerfully as she took a look around - still smiling a lot. "I bet there's lot of things to do!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Oh yeah?" Ryo raised an eyebrow, turning to her and trying not to look unkind. It wouldn't be very good if she got upset at him and ran off, so he had to try being nice just for now. Just until they got out. "Like what?" Because really, all this was an excuse for the older members of the family to talk about stocks and business and compare swanky accessories. He really didn't care about any of that.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"If there's no one else to talk to we can just talk, the two of us, right?" Rina nodded, putting her both elbows on the table to rest her chin in her hands. "Even though you and my brother are friends I barely know you... so can't you tell me a little about yourself?" Failed attempt to be mature and interesting no 1.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ryo blinked a little at that. Now he was being interviewed? What the hell? "Huh, you wanna know about me?" Stupid, she wouldn't have asked if she didn't. But he didn't know what to say, thought it was way too weird that he'd have to describe himself. "...Anything specific?" He'd answer questions, sure, but monologuing? Not cool, or the slightest bit enjoyable.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Rina smiled at that. She had thousands of questions and was right now wondering what to ask first. Though, being naive as she was - this came first: "What's your favourite music? And color? What club in school are you a part of?" Oh, she longed for when she'd be able to ask 'do you like me?'.&lt;br /&gt;What ridiculously stupid questions. Why would anyone ever need to know these things about him? It wasn't as though Ryo wanted to be her friend or her boyfriend or anything.&lt;br /&gt;"I'm not really bothered about music." Ryo commented honestly. He'd always just listened to whatever other people put on, whether he liked it or not. "Favourite colour is yellow." An oddly cheerful colour, considering his general personality. "And I don't have time for stupid stuff like being part of a club." Here was where he was supposed to ask her in return, right? But... He really didn't care, and thus just fell silent.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Ah sou..." Rina nodded, a bit surprised at the short reply but continued the nodding. He was so cool... "What do you want to do in the future?" Seriously, no. She didn't realize how stupid these questions were.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Why do you care?" Ryo raised an eyebrow, thoroughly unimpressed and no less bored than he had been a moment ago. Now he was bored AND annoyed. Not good, definitely not good. "The future's the future, I don't care until it happens and neither should anyone else."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Because-!" She had started but then cut herself off once Ryo continued. That was true... Ah, how amazing he was with words. So deep, and so cool... Rina put her hair behind her ears - trying her best to be as cute as possible. Which wasn't too hard because no one could deny the fact that she was, in fact very cute. "Ah~ Should... should we take a walk?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ryo's respect for Yamashita (the male one, that is) had increased rather a lot already. How the hell did he live with this girl every day? "If you want." he muttered without enthusiasm, fixing his hair as he stood up. The doors were open and apparently the garden was open for their perusal judging by the amount of people he could see out there already, so he figured they'd go out there. It was a nice garden, after all.&lt;br /&gt;Without thinking, he took Rina's hand (having remembered her name by this point) and led the way. It would be better than being in here, anyway; at least there was stuff to look at outside.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Rina's heart immediately started to race extra fast as Ryo held her hand and without saying anything she followed him to wherever he went. Probably she'd follow him to the end of the world too. He just was... so cool, you know? Shigeaki was cool too... but he was always so stiff and just cared about sex anyway, or so she'd heard from her friends. But Ryo wasn't like that at all. Not... even a little bit. He was silent, mysterious... and so cool looking!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ryo didn't like this, wasn't enjoying it at all and wanted very much to let go of her stupid girly hand. But that would look weird to anyone managing to see it, and he couldn't afford to upset her yet.&lt;br /&gt;"So." he muttered, wanting just to break the silence. He didn't have anything to say, but... Yeah, silence. Not fun. "Ran out of stuff to talk about already?"&lt;br /&gt;Besides not liking silence much, Ryo had to keep conversation going with Rina or else he'd get relatives thinking it was okay to come talk to him. Perhaps not inside, but now they'd gotten into the (very pretty) garden he could see his cousins not far away - and while they hadn't seen him yet, if they did and he wasn't doing anything? They'd make it their business to make sure that he was. Because they were like that.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"N-no... um... anou..." Rina mumbled and looked up at him, this would be a great way to confess - wouldn't it? Because, look - he was holding her hand! So all that needed was for her to confess right? And then... aah... He cheeks suddenly felt a little bit warm, just by thinking about it and before she had any chance to stop herself she'd said it.&lt;br /&gt;"... S-suki desu..!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;See, now this was just absolutely fucking perfect. Of course, Ryo had known she liked him for a very long time - her brother had always thought it was pretty funny. But she had to confess right now?! Jesus! What the hell was he supposed to say to that? 'Sorry kid but I have a boyfriend'? Nooo way, she'd go around telling everyone and... Argh.&lt;br /&gt;So what he decided to do was basically lie to her, pretend he liked her in return and then he'd let her know later that he was very sorry, but she was just a little too young for him. She'd be upset, but she'd get over it - and he preferred that she hate him than like him anyway.&lt;br /&gt;"I was hoping you'd say that." He lied easily, grinning in that terribly charming way of his. God but he could be a real asshole sometimes, and he knew so but... This was necessary. For him, anyway.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Oh now she died. Like, you know, for real. DIED. Her heart most definitely stopped beating, her whole face was read as a tomato and her mouth dry. He was HOPING for her to day that? He was... wow. You know, like just. Wow.&lt;br /&gt;"Re-" she licked her lips and swallowed so that she'd be able to talk without sounding like a 90 year old obachan who'd been smoking all her life. "Really...?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Of course. Why do you think I wanted you to come here with me?" Ryo tipped his head a little as he asked, going for maximum sexiness. Or something. Even though that kind of, in some weird way, made what he was going to do that little bit worse. Well... At least she'd be happy for a while? Yeah, that's it. He was doing this as a favour to her, not rejecting her in such a place or at such a time that she'd be embarrassed in front of so many people she didn't know. He'd wait until they were alone to let her down as gently as possible... Because he really did owe her that much. Or would, by that time.&lt;br /&gt;"I'm just glad your brother didn't tell you before I got a chance to." He sounded so honest, thanked every deity he knew that he possessed the talent to lie so convincingly. "I've really liked you for a while now, but I never imagined you'd feel the same way." Just a little weakness there - he knew enough to know that showing some weakness was appealing to 'girly' girls like Rina.&lt;br /&gt;Indeed that was appealing, well... appealing wasn't word enough probably. But anyway.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Rina stared at him with big eyes as she felt some sort of happiness run through her. She was so stunned though, like couldn't find any words AT ALL because she was so damn happy. She had just got herself a boyfriend! Nishikido Ryo even... Aaaah... wait until Haruka got to hear about this. Damn she'd be jealous!&lt;br /&gt;He wasn't sure who it was, but at that point Ryo heard someone call his name. Dammit, he didn't want to talk to his stupid family, they should've known by now to leave him alone! Well, there was really only one way to avoid them and he was looking right at it. God, he wasn't going to enjoy this at all... The unidentified voice called again, and Ryo just really hoped Rina didn't mind as he quickly leaned down and kissed her.&lt;br /&gt;There. Now that he'd shown himself to be rather obviously occupied, hopefully he wouldn't be bothered by anyone. Though he was rather more disgusted with himself than he had been a moment ago.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yamashita Rina was now dead. Seriously, dead. Her heart didn't beat and she wasn't thinking at all because you know what? Nishikido AWESOME Ryo kissed her. Yup, HER. Oh my god.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Uchi Hiroki whined to himself, looking around as he entered another street. He was working, which was reason enough to whine, but lately he'd been told to do errands as well. Like, deliver stuff that people wanted and such.... Which meant he was in deep shit if he wanted to get out, because obviously a club didn't deliver stuff... but he did now have a briefcase in which was... something, he didn't know but it was important and he had to hurry because- Nishikido.&lt;br /&gt;... Wait, what? Hiroki stopped and backed up to look at the sign again to the house he just had passed. Nishikido.&lt;br /&gt;There was noise, even some music but mostly loud talking and that meant that- Damn this house was big. Hiroki took off his cap and looked around, sure he knew Nishikido wasn't a name that unusual, but... lately he'd been rather lucky! So maybe he was lucky tonight too! Slowly he walked in on the small yard that was in front of the entrance to the house and then saw where all the people were standing. Yes, in some garden to the left and- &lt;br /&gt;Wait. Pause, rewind. Stop walking.&lt;br /&gt;Hiroki saw the back of a young person and thus took a few steps further, only to see who he really had wanted it to be a few seconds ago. Nishikido Ryo. HIS Nishikido Ryo. He was kissing, he was... he was kissing some girl who- right now- put her arms around him.&lt;br /&gt;The hell? Hiroki quickly backed up and even faster than that he left the area belonging to Nishikido and instead hurried to find whoever it was this briefcase was going to. Because that was what he was supposed to do! That was what he got paid to do! Because he didn't get paid do not do his job! He didn't get paid to see Ryo kissing some girl! Because that was not his job to spy on his boyfriend! Or... well, his... his... his what? Ryo was his boyfriend wasn't he?!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Completely oblivious as to Hiroki being there at all, Ryo broke the kiss some seconds later and smiled at Rina. It was the sort of smile that said 'I should be sorry, but I'm not really' - you know? Yes, just like that. "Sorry, I should've asked before I did that." he laughed a little. But then that made it sound as though he couldn't keep his hands off her - dammit! He was just way too used to being the best boyfriend a girl could ask for (at least, around here anyway), didn't know how to stop a girl from becoming attached to him. Because if Rina got too comfortable being with him and then later he told her he wasn't going to date her...&lt;br /&gt;It was so horribly selfish, but he didn't want her to cry simply because he didn't want to feel guilty about this.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Uun...." Rina shook her head and shyly looked down before looking up at him again. Ugh, so girly. Blushing of course. "You can do it again if you want..." (Someone please kill her?).&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ryo forced himself to grin, knowing that there was only one acceptable answer to an invitation like that.&lt;br /&gt;"Okay then." So he did.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The time was... Hiroki had no idea what time it was, but it was early, early in the morning anyway and he was heading for Koyama Keiichiro's house. He knew that it probably (well maybe) would make Kei upset, that he'd come there this early but... he didn't care right now. Because he had just gotten back from work and didn't feel like going home and cry himself to sleep - why not? Because it simply... because he didn't feel like it! And he had to talk to someone about it. Seeing how his best friend (aside from Ryo) obviously wasn't at home he thus headed for Kei's room instead.&lt;br /&gt;Yes, room.&lt;br /&gt;As soon as Uchi reached the Koyama (not very big) house he looked around and found some gravel on the ground, which he started to throw up at the window on the second floor which he knew belonged to Kei. Probably he was sleeping, but hopefully not deep enough not to wake up because... Because Hiroki needed to be with at least one friend right now.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tap... Tap... Tap...&lt;br /&gt;Koyama Keiichiro frowned and turned over in bed. What on earth was that annoying noise? Almost as though someone were throwing things at his window - but who would be throwing things at his window at such a ridiculous time?&lt;br /&gt;He tried very hard to ignore it, but the tapping continued and it was really getting way too annoying now. He sat up and stared at the window, as though that would make it shut up - and then saw what looked like a very small stone hit it. Why on earth was anyone throwing stones at his window?! He got up, still in nothing but his underwear, and crossed the room to find out. He threw open the window with slightly more force than was perhaps needed and leaned out of it, not noticing the cold.&lt;br /&gt;"What on earth-" he yelled, cutting himself off quickly when he realised who he was seeing. "...Uchi?" He blinked, thoroughly confused. "What are you doing?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hiroki felt tears form in his eyes again and he bit his lip a little. "Can I talk to you...?" he asked, not knowing what else he could say. He didn't mind talking like this (though he didn't prefer it, but if it had to happen...), outside or come in to Koyama - anything was nice. As long as he got to talk to someone. Because really, after the funeral earlier this day (well yesterday), working too much lately and seeing Ryo kiss someone else..? He just couldn't deal with it... not alone. And he knew it was selfish to try to talk it off to someone else but Uchi just wasn't that strong to keep all things to himself!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Now this was a surprise. Koyama blinked a little, stunned into silence for a moment. When had he last seen Uchi looking upset? The guy was like, always happy. But then Koyama was used to having both Uchi and Ryo around at the same time.&lt;br /&gt;"Sure." he said finally. "You wanna come in?" Because after all, it wouldn't be very nice to make the other one yell at him what was wrong when there was no reason he couldn't come inside.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hiroki nodded and looked down as he felt tears running down now already. Mostly because of Ryo, but he was also so exhausted and tired and really just wanted to sleep - and Kei was always so nice. Even though they didn't hand out much he was still nice and was obviously offering help and... just very, very nice. And this got to him too when he was tired and on the edge of tears like this.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Okay..." Koyama was becoming more nervous already. How could he possibly be any help with any problems Uchi would have? Why him and not Ryo? "I'm gonna get dressed, and... I'll be down in a minute."&lt;br /&gt;True to his word, some two minutes later Kei appeared at the front door, immediately moving out of the way to allow his friend to get inside. Once the door was shut again (he didn't have to be quiet, neither of his parents were home anyway - as usual) he lead the way to his bedroom, flicked on the light and immediately sat on his bed. "Sit down..." he muttered automatically, it being the obvious polite thing to do. He didn't make any indication as to where, but there was a chair in the corner and if Uchi didn't want that then Kei didn't mind the other one sitting on his bed either.&lt;br /&gt;"So... What's up?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hiroki sat down on the bed, staying silent for a few seconds. Now Kei was there, offering himself to listen and now he had a hard time starting. What should he say? Had Ryo told about that they were dating? ... Or whatever they were? And if not-&lt;br /&gt;What did it matter?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"I... I was working today..." he started, mumbling it more like a reminder to himself than to tell Koyama. "And I was going to deliver this briefcase... but then I... I walked pass this house which belonged to Nishikido it said you know..." Okay so he got a bit more aware of that there actually was someone listening to him. "And... and I got curious because people were talking in the garden and I walked there, not to say anything just look! And then... then..." Uchi closed his eyes, which made more tears fall which caused him to fail an attempt to blink them away. "Ryochan was there ne... and he... he... and some girl..."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Oh..." Kei exhaled more than said. As far as he knew Ryo and Uchi were just the best friends they'd always been - but he obviously knew about Hiroki's long-lasting and terribly obvious crush on their almighty leader, so he basically just assumed it was that. "What, was he just... With her? Or were they actually doing something?" He didn't want to make his friend cry more, he really didn't, but he had no idea how to make the other one -stop- crying either.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Kissing..." Hiroki did his best to dry away the tears as he decided to tell Kei, yupp. He decided that on his own! Totally on his own, that no matter if Ryo wanted everyone to know or not, Kei would know within seconds!&lt;br /&gt;"I don't- I don't understand why..." The younger one (with a few days), looked up at Kei with sad (well duh, obviously) eyes. "We... today ne... today we've been... together for 19 days..." Well, did today count? Because Ryo was breaking up with him right...? And if not, how was he supposed to deal with it? He couldn't look Ryo in the eyes after this, he really couldn't.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Nineteen days?" Koyama was slightly surprised at that. Ryo had always been... Well, he'd always been the straightest guy Kei had ever met. Of course, he'd always thought that if Ryo was going to date any guy it'd be Hiroki, but... Wow. Though he couldn't say that! No way, no way, it was just too mean.&lt;br /&gt;"Are you sure they were kissing? Like, absolutely sure?" Kei knew that Ryo was very capable of hurting people; the X-group leader had always seemed to find it an easy thing to do. But to do something like that to his best friend, apparently his boyfriend? Kei hoped that not even Ryo would do that. Though Hiroki knew, from now on obviously, that Ryo was very much capable of that and nodded to answer Kei's question.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"She... she was hugging him... and they... they were really, really... close..." Again Uchi lowered his head, sobbing quietly before he spoke again and then it was just mumbling. "Ne Kei..." Slowly he looked up at the other one, hoping for him to have answers to everything right now. He often did actually! Though Shige was probably one of the smartest in the X-group, Kei did have his bright moments too! ... Okay, so Kei and Shige was probably the smartest ones... Or something. Hiroki didn't even know anymore, not after that he'd had to be away from school for so long. "... why?" &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"I... I don't know why..." The just slightly older one tried very hard not to tear up himself. This was really quite upsetting, after all, and he was usually the type just to cry if he felt like it... That, however, was really not going to help. "But... Don't get upset... If he'd do that to you then he's not worth crying over..."&lt;br /&gt;Of all the people to have to endure such a thing, Hiroki was in Kei's opinion the one who deserved it the absolute least. They'd never been the closest two people in the world, but Kei knew that Hiroki was a good person who'd never do anything to warrant such treatment...&lt;br /&gt;Ryo had always been the kind of guy others were attracted to, he knew so and very much liked it. He'd dated two girls at once before. But then again the leader had never, ever allowed anyone to say or do anything even slightly hurtful to Uchi so... Why would he do something like this?&lt;br /&gt;It made both perfect sense and absolutely none, and that was just so confusing that Kei wanted to go find Ryo and demand the answer himself.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As Hiroki had never, ever feared physical contact with anyone - Kei wasn't really surprised as the younger one leaned against his shoulder. Tears constantly running down his cheeks and he even allowed himself to sob - not trying to hide it anymore. He was just... pretty damn sad. Pretty damn sad and totally not ashamed of it. He had every right to be sad! And he was tired. This was also something he had the right to be... and he was scared, but that was work-related so he didn't want to think about it. Not that he wanted to think about Ryo kissing stupid girl either, but he did it anyway. Anyway, back to the sad part? He had had to attend to his father's funeral, comfort his mom AND find out that his boyfriend obviously had a girlfriend... of course he was sad. He...&lt;br /&gt;Hiroki sobbed and hold on to Keiichiro's shirt as a few moments of silence had passed. "Ne Kei..." he then mumbled. "My father's funeral was today." Did Kei even know? Probably not. The time they had spent together the last few weeks, the X-group that is, had not been wasted by talking about Uchi's sad life. Because really, his life was sad - what joy was there?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kei quickly put his arm around Hiroki’s shoulders in what he hoped was a comforting way. God he felt really damn sorry for his friend... Nobody should have to go through the sort of thing Ryo had apparently done, especially not on the same day as something as upsetting as the funeral of a family member! Really, did life just dislike Uchi Hiroki or something? Certainly seemed that way.&lt;br /&gt;"I'm sorry..." Koyama muttered as though it were his fault. In all honesty he just didn’t know what else to say. People usually didn’t come to him for the whole comforting thing, so he’d never really worked out how to do it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;What was all these random thoughts suddenly popping up in his head like this, Hiroki wondered. Probably because hew as upset, it would make sense. "I want to go to school..." he mumbled. Knowing very well it was impossible, but think about it. That way his father would have been more proud of him and that way he'd also see Ryo more often and maybe even get to know why he wasn't enough. Because that was obviously the reason, right? For Ryo to get a girlfriend... that Hiroki wasn't enough.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"We want you to come back, it's been such a long time..." Kei left it there for the moment, not wanting to point out that it really wasn't very likely the school's senior staff would allow such a thing. "...Do you think they'd let you?" Well, if Hiroki wanted it so badly then it was worth a try, right? It did seem pretty futile though.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"No..." Not as long as they had that principal there... He'd never forget that Hiroki brought his daughter down with him when they got caught being drunk and shoplifting. Add to that the girl, Hiromi, had accused him for sexual harassment that somehow turned into rape that somehow turned Hiroki in to a pervert... and none of it was true. Though of course people believed a girl's tears more than his own yelling. Not even Ryo's attempt to cover for him had helped. It had only given him a warning but for a brief moment the matter of having him suspended too had been talked about. "They won't..." &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"I guess not..." Kei did remember what'd happened, all too clearly. It hadn't been the most fun thing to watch his friends go through. "But you'll always be our friend, you know, and whether you're there or not you're still in X with us..." Because apparently to Koyama Keiichiro, being in X was a terribly good thing. "And... And... Ryo's a real ass sometimes but I'm sure he's really sorry about what he did..." Though perhaps that was a little too much to hope for.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Ne Kei..." Hiroki sobbed and blinked a few times. He was getting tired, crying made him way too tired sometimes. Those words that Keiichiro now had said about X meant more than the world to him... seriously. Because just like him, Hiroki thought of X as a good thing - it was a good thing! Probably the best thing that ever happened to him. "Can... can I stay here... for one night..?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Sure, of course you can." Nobody with any decency could turn away someone like this, could they? Well, Kei certainly couldn't. "You want my bed?" So he'd sleep downstairs. Sleeping on the couch basically meant hours of staring at the ceiling, twitching violently at any sound and being way too frightened to move until the sun rose. Because his living room was just goddamn scary in the dark... Not that anyone else knew he thought that. Nooo way. How horribly embarrassing. "I'll sleep downstairs, I don't mind."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The sun had yet to rise, as the clock wasn't more than 4.30 in the morning, but it was just a matter of time before it did. The house was silent, except for the from the computer in the other room making noise. It was on, only because he had been up a bit early to send an email to his mother - apologizing for not sending an email this weekend but that he'd been busy. Which wasn't all lying - he had been busy! Sure sending an email wouldn't have taken too long but that was beside the point.&lt;br /&gt;"Tooomo-hi-sa-chan~♥" Kazuya sing-songed as he crawled up in the bed to lie down next to Tomohisa who was still sleeping. Not that one could blame him though, seeing how early it was still. But they had to get up and ready if they wanted to spend any time together before school started. After all, Ryo would get there (well he'd get to Yamashita's) at around 7.15 and by then Tomohisa needed to be awake and ready. And Kazuya had to have his dose of Tomohisa to make it through the day before that. Which meant, in other words, that he really had to get up by now. "Okinasai~"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa himself then demonstrated just how happy he was to be asleep by doing the one thing he'd never do otherwise - that is, turning completely away from the other one. "Go 'way, 'm sleepin'." he mumbled, not completely coherent yet. Well of course he wasn't! It was 4.30 in the morning! ...Not that he knew that.&lt;br /&gt;"Still dark." Well, as far as he could see from behind his eyelids. Especially while he wasn't looking. But the light hadn't bothered him yet, so he could only assume it wasn't there. See, Yamashita Tomohisa was a smart kid even while sleeping! "Later..." And with that he apparently gave up on talking, yawned loudly and continued to ignore the rest of the world.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Not at all much surprised, but rather used to this by now, Kazuya smiled and then instead put an arm on Tomohisa's other side and rested his chin against the other one's arm ... it could probably be rather uncomfortable. "Moou... get up ne..." he said in a playful tone, while looking down at Tomohisa's sleeping face. Well, so much he could see of it... Sure, he did love the sight and all that - but that was exactly why he'd been sitting on the floor for half an hour, just watching him before he decided he had to wake him up! After all, Tomohisa's smiling face was just as beautiful as his sleeping... well, maybe... or... hm... this was a hard question. But he could think about that now, first he had to get the older one to get up! "It's morning..."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Despite the sudden random pain in his arm, Tomohisa was as stubborn as ever. "No 's not." he mumbled. Though really he knew he'd have to get up in a minute - the world was apparently conspiring to wake him, and if he ignored it then it would just conspire harder. He didn't want that, not really. "Shh..."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya turned his head to the side so that the pain would stop and let his cheek rest against the other one's arm instead. "Noo..." he whispered back to Tomohisa as he slowly let his arm find it's way down to the 'sleeping' one's waist. "You should really get up now..." As Tomohisa again made some noise, showing off just how much he wanted to sleep, Kazuya figured this obviously wasn't going to work unless he really woke him up... and what was a great way of doing that? - Exactly, tickle him.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The older one lasted a grand total of a second and a half after that, despite trying very hard not to move. Tickling! How evil!&lt;br /&gt;"Hey!" Tomohisa shrieked - yes, shrieked, in a pitch much higher than one would've thought possible given his speaking voice. And of course suddenly he was wide awake, sitting up and grabbing Kazuya's wrists as soon as he was able to locate them. "That's not fair." He glared sleepily at the other, not actually annoyed or anything but... That really wasn't fair! How on earth was anyone supposed to sleep with that sort of thing going on?!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya sat still and just looked at the newly awake Tomohisa, trying his best not to grin widely and thus instead pouted at him. "Datte... sabishii dechu~" He said, being way too childish for his own good. Though he managed not to laugh too much about it. But he had a point though you know? He did have a point! With the clock soon being 4.40 they just had about two and a half hour, right? And that was almost too little! Because... Kazuya was addicted like that - obviously.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"That's still no reason to..." Tomohisa cut himself off there and sighed a little, letting go of the other one's wrists. He rubbed his eyes, still really quite tired and wanting very much to go back to sleep... "What time is it..?" he asked, wondering whether it was as early as it felt. Because really, he only felt as though he'd had an hour or two of sleep. Enjoyable, satisfying sleep but still not enough of it. ...Though apparently enough for his (usually quite nice) hair to be all over the place. Not that he'd noticed that.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya cast an eye at the digital watch standing on the bedside table and then smiled at Tomohisa. "Don't kill me okay?" he asked, but didn't wait for a reply before he announced the time exactly; 4.38. As he waited for a reaction he moved a bit closer to the (somewhat annoyed?) boy next to him and rested his head against his shoulder. "Today's Monday ne... a whole day of school..." School meant no touching, no talking and more or less no looking. Which would be totally weird since they had spent more than half of this weekend together. "Boring, boring school ne~" Then he smiled and lifted his head and looked at Tomohisa. "But we have mail ne!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Deciding to ignore the issue of the ridiculous hour at which he'd been woken, Tomohisa managed to smile at Kazuya. "I guess that's better than nothing." His voice didn't hold a lot of enthusiasm - but that was normal, he wouldn't be properly awake for a few minutes yet. "...Wait, don't tell me that's why you got me up now?" After all, it would be just like Kazuya to do something like that. He was just weird sometimes. But that didn't matter at all when the weirdness was this damn loveable. ...Because it totally was, you know. Or at least it was to Tomohisa, and it wasn't like he was asking anyone else to like it. In fact he'd be slightly annoyed if they did. Anyway, back to reality! Yupp, the reality where Kazuya seemed to be a bit nervous and look down at the sheets. "Jaa... well..." He smiled a little as he tried to come up with a good excuse. "Maybe...?" Well, he knew that Tomohisa definitely knew that was the reason. Though he wouldn't admit to it right away! Because you know, some people do get up at this crazy early hour! Only because Tomohisa wasn't like that... it wasn't that this was unnormal you know. Maybe one should phrase that 'not normal'...&lt;br /&gt;"You're weird." the taller one laughed a bit at that. "But! If I'd been awake first which never ever, ever happens but if it did! I totally would've woken you." Tomohisa nodded, the run-on sentences showing that he was actually becoming himself again. How nice? Only really if you like stupid ramble. Most people would've left him asleep. "So I guess I can't really complain! Even though I am tired y'know... But anyway now we have time! I'm not sure what we're gonna do with it but it's there and otherwise I would've slept right through it which I'd be all regretting later. Like 'maa, why do I have to sleep' sort of thing, you know? I like sleeping and there's the whole energy thing but otherwise it's a real waste of time..."&lt;br /&gt;Wow, what on earth set him off? Suddenly with the unending babble! Really, it was quite surprising seeing as he'd been the immovable object just minutes ago.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Darou!" Kazuya more or less jumped out of bed (still just wearing boxers and a t-shirt by the way) and then reached out his hand to Tomohisa. "Let's have breakfast ne~ It's all ready and stuff downstairs!" Okay so he wasn't the best cook ever, but he did know how to do breakfast! Especially since he'd more or less studied how Tomohisa had done Sunday morning. Aa~ how nice it was! To think of that they even spent weekend morning's together! Well, not all of the time of course but it had happened twice now and those mornings were definitely the best ever.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The taller one, clad only in his underwear but not altogether too bothered about it, took Kazuya's hand to help himself up. "You made food? By yourself?" Tomohisa grinned. "Are you sure I'll survive eating it?" Not that it was so bad, really, he just... Liked being better at something? Yeah, something like that. Cooking was his thing and he was so totally entitled to make fun of anyone else doing it because... It was his thing! And he didn't have anything else! Not that he really enjoyed making fun of people - but, yeah, anyway.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Moou!" Kazuya pouted and gave Tomohisa a push on the chest, though obviously not strong enough to have him fall down in the bed again, unfortunately. "I guess you'll just have to try it nee~♥" He glared at the taller one (well he tried to look angry and offended but didn't quite succeed much) before squeezing Tomohisa's hand and leave the room.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Ah, but how do I know you're not trying to poison me?" Tomohisa laughed as he followed along - well, really it was more of a good-natured sort of giggle. "Maybe you secretly hate me... And you've been plotting my untimely demise for some time!" He gasped aloud, jokingly shocked, and brought his free hand up to his mouth. "That's what this is, isn't it? You want me dead so badly you spent all this time building up to it so that I'd trust you, and now you're making your final move to end my unfortunate life!" What on earth was he talking about? Seriously, once he'd gotten up Tomohisa was basically insane. He blamed the time. Yes, it was definitely the fact that it wasn't even 5am yet that made him this weird.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Ah sou ka..." Kazuya sighed as they walked downstairs. Had Tomohisa said that two weeks ago, Kazuya'd probably gotten rather hurt and taken it all way too serious. But ever since that day on the roof, that day when they had realized they needed no words to talk to each other, that as long as they would be together at some point everything would be just fine. And this way everyone got to be happy, right? After all that was all that mattered... in the long run. Everyone got to be happy and he didn't, honestly, feel guilty towards anyone. Not even Jin. But that's not a pleasant subject so moving on~&lt;br /&gt;"Sou desu ne..." Kazuya nodded. "You figured it out hu? That's too bad... I'll have you eat it anyway though!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"See, now if this was going to be a proper story I'd be just about to take the first mouthful and then you, right, you'd stop me and burst into tears and stuff. And then when I ask what's wrong you tell me you're in love with me and then there's violin music, right, and then!" Tomohisa illustrated his point, making hand motions that basically made no sense to anyone but himself. He really seemed to be getting into this. "And then! Then kissing happens and we ride off into the sunset on a random horse that came out of nowhere, and the words 'the end' come up in big fancy writing and rooooll credits!"&lt;br /&gt;With that, he promptly burst out laughing. It was just... Way too funny to him, really.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya however, didn't laugh (not because it wasn't funny, because it was but...) about it but nodded. "You know, my grandparents live in Sendai, ne... and they have horses..." He nodded and looked up at Tomohisa. "We could borrow one of theirs! I bet they have a white one..."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Slowly Tomohisa managed to calm his hysterics, though still had a smile on his face as he gave the smaller one a light shove. "You know it's funny, you're just not laughing so I'll feel stupid and shut up. Well I'm not shutting up!" More laughter went on then, before sudden abrupt quietness. "...I don't know what you did to me, but I'm really hyper right now." he announced, as though it were at all important.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;At that Kazuya laughed as they walked in to the kitchen and there was breakfast. On the table there was lovely breakfast that looked really eatable too!&lt;br /&gt;"See?" He proudly did a gesture towards the table and looked up at his boyfriend. "It doesn't look so bad does it?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Well it looks okay..." Tomohisa nodded, looking slightly more impressed by that than he should've been. He wasn't sure what he'd been expecting, but... Yeah. Expectation never matches up to the real thing, unless you're prophetic. Which he most certainly wasn't. "...But looks can be deceiving!" That probably wasn't true in this case, but he was having fun anyway! Definitely the most important thing right now! Because being woken up at such a stupid time of the morning meant he was totally entitled to have fun with random things that would just be normal otherwise.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya wanted to hug him and kiss him and- ... so lots of other things, but kept himself from doing any of those as he walked up to the table with Tomohisa and pulled out the chair to have him sit down. Because that's what gentlemen does... and obviously that was exactly what kind of man he was. Or something like that.&lt;br /&gt;"It's not that baad~" He smiled and then went around the table to sit down in front of the other one. "I promise! The eggs are great!" He fell silent, since when did he become so bold when it came to cooking? He barely knew how to make good rice! Well, obviously he knew how to make rice with the machine and all but you get the point! "I-I mean... they- they're not awful..."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"You've gotta have confidence, y'know. If you say 'I cook really badly' or 'I can't do this' then you'll end up right!" Tomohisa nodded sagely. Yes, being older meant that he was allowed to act knowledgeable sometimes - especially about this, of all things. "Aaanyway, can't be that bad!" He smiled, forever optimistic, and mumbled an 'itadakimasu' before picking up his chopsticks and taking a slightly hesitant first bite. Chewing and swallowing happened... And then more smiling. "Oishii~" he chirped. Not that he'd really have noticed if it wasn't any good. He was always so ridiculously hungry in the morning that he'd eat anything - had quite literally ingested rubber before now. But that was only because his sleep-fogged mind had confused an eraser for something edible, which hadn't been pleasant... Anyway, now he decided to further satisfy himself by turning his attention back to the food in front of him and basically inhaling it. Only not literally. But it may as well have been literally by the sheer speed at which he managed to shove things in his mouth - and just how much he managed to get in there at once was pretty damn impressive too. Not that he knew anything about that. But Jesus, at this rate he'd break the light barrier and finish before he'd started! ...Mm, science.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya looked with big eyes at his boyfriend, waiting for a reaction. Himself he was too nervous to actually eat. You know, it was more or less like cooking for a chef! Imagine the feeling... or like, sing in front of Gackt or someone? IMAGINE! Or even worse, filming a movie and showing it to Steven Speil... Spiel.. Spei..l...-birg? Whatever his name was- that American guy anyway! That's how nervous Kazuya was right now. Then that 'oishii' came out and he felt as if a rock was lifted from his shoulders.&lt;br /&gt;"Really?" he asked, but didn't get an answer before he saw how Tomohisa had started eating some more of it... that meant it was really good, right? With a smile, Kazuya looked up at the clock - it was just 4.55, they still had lots of time to spend together and if he could choose how - it would be by kissing. Because God knew he liked kissing. It wasn't just the whole thing about kissing-kissing you know? It was... nice. It made two become one and he felt closer to Tomohisa. He felt like he belonged with him, which he totally did too by the way. It was just something about... the taste of Tomohisa that got to him. Made him feel like a totally new person, like a complete different person yet stay as himself... and did he love that feeling.&lt;br /&gt;Slowly Kazuya started to eat some of the food as well, slowly though - not even close to as fast as Tomohisa. They were quite different in behaviour actually... Probably Kazuya was more of a 'princess' than he'd like to admit. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Of course, Tomohisa was finished within minutes. Now most people would get indigestion from eating so fast – but apparently he was immune to that. Or something. Point is, he was perfectly able to eat at twice the speed of the average human being and be completely unaffected. Quite the talent, that.&lt;br /&gt;Now he needed an activity that would occupy him without being annoying. Muttering a quick ‘gochisosan’, the older one rested his elbows on the table and settled in for an intense round of Kazuya-watching. Tomohisa had always found that an entertaining activity before, why should now be any different? …Exactly. So there he was, just sort of staring with a goofy lopsided smile, not bothered that he probably looked sort of weird.&lt;br /&gt;Ah, but the entertainment value really was immense. Despite Ryo only saying it to be an ass, which by the way he was very good at, Kazuya really was quite princessly. Not that ‘princessly’ is even a word. Unless it is? Anyway, not important. So Kazuya really was the princess… That made Akanishi the stereotypical self-absorbed Prince Charming (which he probably wasn’t, but there you go), and Tomohisa himself was the stable boy who just happened to fall in love with the princess.&lt;br /&gt;What was it with him and thinking in fairytales today? Really, it didn’t make sense. Their lives were interesting, to say the least, but not really enough to qualify as fairytale material. Unless they were all living in a fairytale and weren’t aware of it… But that was just too weird to think about.&lt;br /&gt;“I guess you really are a princess,” the older one laughed.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya immediately looked up at him, lowering his chopsticks. He wasn't uncomfortable with being watched by Tomohisa... because it had obviously happened before. But that comment? What did that come from?&lt;br /&gt;"Pardon?" he asked, oh what a nice thing to say instead of a simple 'eh'. But it didn't feel quite right. Not when he was in the mood to behave... and be nice and all that. "What makes you say that?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Just..." Tomohisa shook his head a little, laughing this time at himself. "I don't know, you just act like one. ...Not that that's a bad thing!" he added quickly, not wanting to be taken the wrong way. "I don't mean it like Ryo does or anything, he's stupid. I mean... I don't know, you're just very princessly." He nodded, almost as though he actually made sense. Which he basically didn't. Ever.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya laughed at that with raised eyebrows. He didn't get that at all. Sure, he knew Ryo said it only because Ryo would never be able to be as elegant as Kazuya but that was totally different! ... Okay, so maybe that wasn't the reason but it made one a bit more confident to think of it that way!&lt;br /&gt;"Ah well then~" He said, grinning at Tomohisa. "Ohime-sama desu." Five seconds of silence passed before he burst out laughing again, clapping his hands... not wanting to laugh because he really was hungry you know.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Nonono!" Tomohisa protested through his laughter. "You're more of a Himechan if you ask me~" Not that anyone had, but oh well. "And of course I'm right so from now on you can be Himechan. So there." He grinned widely, nodding to emphasise his point. "Princess of the world! Maybe I should be bowing at your feet, huh?" What an odd thought, bowing at someone's feet.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Lowering your head a little is enough ne~" Because then they could kiss! Oh, I swear he's addicted to kissing. Himechan... wasn't that just really cute? Maybe he was the only one thinking so though, but he loved having a nickname like that! Only Tomohisa knew about and it was totally... It made him totally hyper!&lt;br /&gt;"Well then~" He nodded. "Himechan just for you then."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Just for him, huh? The idea of having something just between them like that, even if it was something as small as a stupid nickname made up on the spot... It was just way too good. Waaay too good. Suddenly Tomohisa couldn't stop smiling, as though it had somehow become a physical impossibility. "Okay then!" he chirped, with just slightly more cheeriness than was perhaps necessary. But screw necessity, he was cheerful so he'd act it! "My Himechan and nobody else's." he nodded resolutely. Maybe he'd be forced to share Kazuya, but Himechan? His and his alone! So there!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Definitely not! Belonging only to Tomokun~" Kazuya smiled back at him before he took up the sports that was eating again. This was great! It was barely 5 in the morning and he was already awake like it was 10 on a Sunday! Or something like that. He was way too hyper for his own good anyway, that was the point.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;3-E's homeroom was a normal enough classroom, really. Okay, so it was the setting for many a fistfight, had heard more insults than most film critics, and had a great big line right down the middle. But apart from that it was pretty much normal, even almost looked that way this morning.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Of course, it always looked okay when there was nobody in it, and a very alone Nishikido Ryo managing to blend quite nicely into the scenery didn't do much to take that look away. Obviously the moment a member of Y-group set foot through the door all that would change, all of the X-group leader's hostility would come rushing back to him... But for now all he did was sit and stare at his cell phone.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It kept telling him his message inbox was empty. But that didn't make sense – Hiroki hadn't picked up the phone this morning, and he always sent a message if he wasn't going to be able to. Ryo dialled the familiar number quickly, bringing the tiny wonder of technology up to his ear for the fifth time that morning. It rang, and rang, and rang, and then passed him onto the answering machine – at which point he promptly hung up. Again.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It was weird to be cut off from his best friend (his boyfriend now, he reminded himself) like this, especially since he didn't have any money to use for text messages. The feeling was similar to being locked in a glass box, and Ryo didn't like it. He was, dare he think it, sort of worried.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The door opened and within a moment X-group's smart-talking, warmongering leader was right back (to replace Ryo and his actual human feelings – highly unnecessary). He didn't look up, but was a little surprised when he heard nothing but footsteps taking someone to the back of the room. On his side. Surely Koyama (for it could be nobody else) hadn't just not bothered to greet him at all? Ryo did look up then, confusion turning to irritation when he realised that yes, it really was Koyama Keiichiro.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Good morning to you too," the leader muttered sarcastically.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Whatever." Keiichiro mumbled offhandedly, looking out of a nearby window in what looked to be a deliberate show of how little he cared. Now, a lack of greeting Ryo could get over, but insolence like that? Simply not acceptable.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"The fuck's wrong with you?" he demanded, tensing visibly and very much ready to break Kei's face if so needed. Really, fighting would at least take his mind off the lack of correspondence with Hiroki for a bit – and there were no members of Y-group around, so he didn't need to be worried about embarrassing X in its entirety.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Nothing." Another one-word answer, and still Kei stared out of the window. Ryo was really becoming frustrated now. Since when did Koyama have any semblance of nerve at all?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Listen," Ryo stood, walking across the room to grab the front of Keiichiro's shirt and force him to look. "I don't know what the fuck is wrong with you, but you'd better not show us up when Y get here. Because I am so not in the mood for that today."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Why's that?" Kei asked, staring innocently into the eyes of his great and almighty leader. Ryo exhaled aloud and said nothing, even when the other one had the balls to smile sarcastically at him. In this sort of situation! God, the guy was just looking for a punch in the nose or something. "What's her name?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ryo was obviously very confused by that question. "What's who's name?" he asked, irritation still evident in his voice.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Your girlfriend."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"I'll kill you." Jin shook his head as he walked next to Koki, they never walked together to school unless something awesome happened and yesterday they had totally won the football game and thus went out to celebrate. Because of this they had ended up drunk and once they had made it home to Koki's apartment they had both collapsed on the floor in the living room. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"What? Think he'll be upset with you?" Koki grinned as he threatened to tell Kazuya about Jin's weird acting that had been going on yesterday. Acting that included making out with random girls on the way back to Koki. "He'll get over it."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"You don't tell him a single word, get it?" The taller one of the two turned and grabbed Koki by his t-shirt (he never wore the shirt that belonged to the uniform like he was supposed to). "If you do, I'll kill you. Get it?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Koki, not at all scared (okay so he was but he'd never admit it to anyone) just nodded with a relaxed smile. "Cool, chill man." The shorter (and most relaxed guy ever) one shrugged and then went to sit down on the stair outside of the school building. "I promised to wait for Nakamaru here, you could go in if you want."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Jin pulled a face. He knew Kazuya might be absent today because of that visit to his grandmother's, but hopefully he'd be there... though he wouldn't really be inside yet would he? It wasn't all that late you know. Himself he was only early because Koki had forced him to get up... sure the clock had been 6.45, but c'mon! He didn't have to get up until 7! He could have got to sleep for 15 more minutes... 15 minutes of lovely sleep. And Koki forced him to be without it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"You still owe me 15 minutes of sleep you know."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Nakamaru Yuichi strolled casually toward where he was to meet his friend, looking terribly odd as he did. After all, it's not every day you see a wisecracker like him apparently considering himself repeatedly in a hand mirror. It wasn't as though he was looking at his hair (effortlessly cool, as usual) or his uniform (similarly cool, though less tidy) or anything... No, by the way he repeatedly changed the angle of both his head and his mirror, it was apparent he was looking at something in that area. Odd, really - sure, he'd never been the type to be popular with the fairer sex, but he'd never cared before.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He muttered a quick 'ohayo' directed at both Koki and Jin as he approached them, not taking his eyes off his reflection. For several moments there was silence, before the self-appointed funny one of Y-group asked the eternal question:&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Do you guys think I have a big nose?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Jin burst out laughing at the question and clapped his hands. While Koki just quirked a brow and soon joined the Y-leader, laughing. It was surely one of the most random questions asked ever! Only weird would probably be if someone asked if their ears were pretty or something...&lt;br /&gt;Koki stopped laughing - that was something Yuichi would definitely be able to pull off. So he laughed a little at that before clearing his throat and look up at Nakamaru.&lt;br /&gt;"It's medium-ish, why?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"No reason..." Yuichi muttered offhandedly, looking up and down repeatedly as he compared his nose to theirs.&lt;br /&gt;That was a total lie, by the way. The previous morning he'd been waiting in line in some random store, and had been thoroughly embarrassed by some little girl yelling at the top of her tiny lungs something to the effect of 'mama, look at that boy's huuuuuge nose!'.&lt;br /&gt;Of course, after that he'd tipped his head down to hide both his mortified look and his apparently huge nose from outsider inspection. People had laughed. He'd had the urge to kill them all. So violent! Fortunately more in theory than in practice.&lt;br /&gt;"How much is surgery for that kind of thing these days?" he asked, as though it were common knowledge. Indeed, as though he'd be able to afford it anyway. Not that he was really considering getting surgery... Well okay so he'd thought about it. But that was all!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Heh?!" Both Jin and Koki let out and quickly exchanged looks with one another and then stared at their friend in front of them.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"You serious?!" Koki, who obviously was closer to Nakamaru than Jin, walked up to him. "Why? What makes you ask that?" Sure, it was true that Yucchi did have a nose that wasn't as small as every one else's, but it wasn't really that bad! It was really good, to be honest! It added to his character and made him cool! Because he totally was cool you know.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yuichi laughed, returning his hand mirror to his pocket. "Yeah, I'm gonna go waste all my money on surgery so that something I don't see much anyway can be a bit more invisible." He shook his head like he hadn't been the one to propose such a ridiculous idea, looking much more cheerful as he did.&lt;br /&gt;"So!" he clapped his hands together to punctuate the word, evidently ready to change the subject. "Anything interesting happening today?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Jin was cheating on Kame last night!" Koki informed, knowing it would piss Jin off, but also that it didn't matter much, because Kazuya would stay by Jin's side anyway. "With some blonde!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"She wasn't blonde!" Jin talked back and sighed. "It was just stripes. And I didn't do much-"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"She sort of looked like Pamela Anderson!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Of course, Yuichi couldn't help but laugh again. "Lucky!" he exclaimed. "How'd you manage that? ...Wait, don't tell me, I'm not sure I want to know." More laughter. "Prettier than Kame, I bet. You take advantage of that kid." His tone held no conviction - it wasn't exactly a surprise, after all, and he was only joking. Even though it was true. But he was still joking. "Must be nice to have your very own personal servant, eh?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ignoring the insult against Kazuya (as it was from an Y-member it wasn't that big of a deal), Akanishi took a step forward, trying to make himself look bigger than Nakamaru - which he was without trying but still.&lt;br /&gt;"What do you mean how 'd manage that? I'm hot!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Suddenly Nakamaru clasped his hands together and put on an odd expression much like a girl about to burst into tears. "Oh Akanishi-sama, you taunt me so! Doomed as I am to love you from afar, watching you lavish your attention on everyone else - oh the internal agony!" He swooned dramatically, managing to keep up his act for a further five seconds before bursting into laughter. "...Or not! I'll find you a needle, okay? Your head's so swollen, can't be comfortable." See, now he sort of sounded like that fucker Nishikido. But the difference was that he was joking, didn't actually mean anything by it and just generally wasn't that stupid. So there.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Koki glanced up at Jin, who could easily be mistaken for a bull who just saw red, and because of this the (fake) gangster hurried to stand next  to Y's own comedian. "You pissed him off..." he whispered and was ready to run just about any minute. Because no matter how old they were supposed to be, how cool they were supposed to be... Jokes like these from inside of Y could put Jin totally off and thus it wasn't unusual that they often ended up playing tag in the parks after school.&lt;br /&gt;But obviously that was what so happening now too... Soon anyway.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Yuichi blinked. Once more. And then again. Goddamn it was way too easy to piss this guy off! Someone needed to force-feed him a chill pill, or something. Seriously, it had to be crossing the line into a medical need by now. "C'mon, you know I don't mean it..." he muttered, all of his earlier confidence apparently sleeping. Or dead. ...Nah, sleeping. Either way he was prepared to run away very fast if need be.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Koki carefully pulled Nakamaru's arm and backed up a few steps before setting off, heading for the football field, with Jin soon running after them. All three of them knew that it wasn't really all that serious though, but for now? Jin was totally pissed (or not) for receiving an insult like that and thus he of course had to beat Nakamaru up because of it! Not that he really would, but yay for running and playing around before class!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“My what?”&lt;br /&gt;Ryo let go of Koyama’s shirt, staring in disbelief at the other one. His girlfriend? That could only mean Rina, who’d only been his girlfriend for a few hours – how the hell did Kei even know about that?!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Your girlfriend.” Keiichiro repeated, still smiling. “Is she nice? Just that a good friend of mine told me you were kissing a girl, you know, and why would you kiss a girl unless she was your girlfriend? Doesn’t make sense.” There were several moments of silence. Kei blinked with fake confusion. “What’s wrong? You have girlfriends all the time. It’s not like you’re already dating someone, right?”&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Shut up.” Ryo snapped. Okay, so someone had seen him making out with Rina. It wasn’t so bad, couldn’t possibly be linked to the sudden lack of contact with Hiroki… “Who told you?”&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Who told me what?”&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“You fucking know what. Who told you about me and the kid. Who exactly was it that saw us.” It was more of a demand than a question this time. Koyama was happy to oblige.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Uchikun did. He didn’t seem very happy for you though…” Understatement of the century – Uchi had been pretty much been heartbroken, and Kei was ready to see Ryo suffer for it. Sadistic much? Not really. It didn’t count as sadistic when the person deserved it this much.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Fuck!” yelled the leader out loud, grabbing fistfuls of his own hair. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck so Hiroki really did know. He’d seen them, even! How the hell was he going to fix this?!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“What?” Keiichiro asked, still with all that fake innocence. As though he didn’t know about the whole Ryo-and-Uchi thing. Because as of last night he totally did. Either way, Ryo ignored him and began to pace the classroom – still tugging painfully at his hair.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Oh fuck oh FUCK god I’m such a fucking IDIOT he’s so never gonna believe the truth so what the hell am I gonna tell him?!” demanded the leader, talking to nobody imparticular. Nobody had the answer, he knew that much, he’d have to find it himself. But how? Oh god but this was really not good.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Why do you have to explain that to him..?” Kei felt he really deserved an award for that. It sounded way too convincing to have come from him. This time Ryo saw fit to answer, having stopped the random assault on his scalp for now.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Because we’re dating, moron!” he yelled, then seemed to consider his answer. “Or… We were. I don’t know… Goddamn…” Ryo exhaled aloud, looking suddenly very blank. As though the guilt had overloaded his circuits and wiped out all emotion by accident. Really, it looked that way as the leader stumbled clumsily back to his seat and just… Sat there. Quietly. Looking very not like himself. Of course, the imminent arrival of Y lurked in the back of his mind… But for all he cared Akanishi could come in armed with a potato gun and demand that everyone paint their left shoe purple. It didn’t matter.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Of course the door slide opened at that, but the one to enter wasn't Akanishi but Kamenashi. He had totally not caught the rest of Y playing in the football field and thus he assumed they were all here. When they weren't he got a bit surprised, but what got to him more was Ryo's expression. What could ever have happened that made him look so... lost? Was it lost? Maybe. Anyway, he didn't say anything but only looked at the X leader and then Koyama... doing nothing but walking up to his desk - remaining silent. Of course wondering where the others were.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Um... Ryo? Are you okay?" Kei asked hesitantly, not moving - or indeed acknowledging the presence of a Y-group member. Okay, he'd wanted Ryo to suffer and feel guilty and things because he deserved to but... Now that it was actually happening... Keiichiro felt really horrid for having wanted it at all.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ryo obviously didn't reply, continued to stare forwards with what now appeared to be a sort of frightened desolation. Like a deer in headlights, except that this deer had apparently already given up. Yep, it really was that bad - after all, he had every reason to believe that Hiroki never wanted to see him again. They'd been friends since forever, had only recently gotten to be anything other than that and now... Ryo had gone and destroyed everything just because he hadn't wanted to talk to his stupid cousins. How could he possibly feel anything but guilt, plus anger at himself?&lt;br /&gt;Exactly. He couldn't.&lt;br /&gt;----------------------------&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Teasers for Chapter 15&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Hime-chan needs some'thing' to look at ^.~&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Sorry..."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Of course, right now he wasn't getting anything out of this, but that didn't matter - making this good for Hiroki would hopefully be its own reward.&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;</content>
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    <content type="html">&lt;b&gt;Title:&lt;/b&gt; Yabeki&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Author:&lt;/b&gt; Ohimechan &amp;amp; Aiko&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Pairing:&lt;/b&gt; Jin/Kazuya, Tomohisa/Kazuya, Ryo/Uchi, Shige/Koyama &lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Characters:&lt;/b&gt; X Group: Nishikido Ryo, Yamashita Tomohisa, Koyama Keiichiro, Kato Shigeaki. Y Group: Akanishi Jin, Kamenashi Kazuya, Tanaka Koki, Nakamaru Yuichi. Still in no group: Kusano Hironori.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Disclaimer:&lt;/b&gt; &lt;a href="http://ohime-chan.livejournal.com/459.html"&gt;General Disclaimer and stuff.&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Genre:&lt;/b&gt; School fic, angst, love, hate - all that stuff.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Rating:&lt;/b&gt; PG13 (I think? I don't know!)&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Word Count:&lt;/b&gt; 11 366&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;Notes:&lt;/b&gt; This is the last chapter of Yabeki Part 1.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;a name="cutid1"&gt;&lt;/a&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;b&gt;&lt;big&gt;Yabeki&lt;/big&gt; - Chapter 13&lt;/b&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;'Tomohisa,&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;How are you? I'm awake and it's soon past three in the morning. For once I'm spending the night in my room. I've looked over at your window more times than I can count just within the last hour, hoping to see you. But then I remembered the time and I guess you're sleeping. You should be sleeping anyway. I wish I could be there with you, wish I could be next to you  - watch your sleeping face and keep myself from waking you up.&lt;br /&gt;That other guy's here. He's sleeping and I know that once morning comes I'll have to be in his arms again.&lt;br /&gt;How I wish, that I, for once, would be able to spend a whole day with you, without having to be afraid that someone would see and so make living so much harder than it already is.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;You know, even though my heart's with you, I can't dislike Him. Not even a little. He was, after all, the first one who ever saw me. He kept me from doing awful things to myself and thus brought me back to life. In one way I'll forever be grateful to him. Once I thought he'd always be the reason for why I'm still breathing and have yet to fail another suicide attempt. Even though I know, I know he doesn't love me. I know he'll get married to some beautiful woman soon enough. I've always known that being together with him wouldn't last long. But I was okay with that. I was okay with knowing he didn't (doesn't) love me.&lt;br /&gt;Because he saw me, you know? &lt;br /&gt;But then you kissed me, and it was so different. It wasn't like when I was with him. It wasn't like anything I've experienced before. Even though it was just a kiss in a very awkward moment it charmed me and I couldn't stop thinking about you once it was over.&lt;br /&gt;That's what love's like for real, isn't it?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;That night when you told me you like me, my mind went blank. I didn't know what to say or do or believe. I still have a hard time understanding it, that -you- like me. Why?&lt;br /&gt;What could I possibly have done to deserve someone as beautiful as you?&lt;br /&gt;"Kyou mo suki desu" you said the next day and smiled.&lt;br /&gt;The way you make me feel when you say those gentle words - smile at me with those lips-&lt;br /&gt;That feeling is surely the best feeling in this world. I'm not sure, but I think it's called something along the lines like 'happiness'.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I love being with you. Even if it's just for a little while, laying next to you. Those minutes are what I treasure the most. When you smile at me and I look you in the eyes I feel hope. You give me hope, make me think, realize that maybe - just maybe things will be good? If I wait just a little bit longer, then maybe life will take a turn and have me enjoying it?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;I'm forever grateful to you. That you spend time with me, that you tell me your true feelings and make me believe in your words. I still don't quite get it though. It's unbelievable, that someone as beautiful like you would like someone like me. What is there to like?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;All of this, all of us, is like a dream. To meet your eyes, see you smile and feel your lips is definitely something I'd do anything to keep for forever.&lt;br /&gt;It's a dream, isn't it?&lt;br /&gt;It sure would explain all of this - why I'd be feeling so good even though I probably should cry about my so called beloved's behavior? Even though he curses at me and over and over, makes me the object of irritation, I feel good inside. Because I know your words are true, that you like me. Because I know that if I keep up with this I'll have a moment with you again. I don't know why, but I know it'll happen.&lt;br /&gt;... I'm dreaming aren’t I? But it's definitely a good dream, it’s the best.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Say, Tomohisa, do you believe we dream when we're dead? You think that we'd still be aware of our dreaming if we'd die?&lt;br /&gt;I think so. I know that the consciousness wouldn't be the same as it is for a living person. But I still believe our thoughts just wouldn't die, not like that.&lt;br /&gt;Our thoughts and our personality, our soul, it would somehow live on, right?&lt;br /&gt;Because, you know, I really like this dream. I like having it and I'm scared every minute I'm not with you, that I'll wake up.&lt;br /&gt;Having an endless dream where I'd forever be with you would be the best.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Thank you for showing me real happiness.&lt;br /&gt;I love you.&lt;br /&gt;			Kazuya.'&lt;/i&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It didn’t take long, since he was a fast reader anyway. Two minutes at most. But he read it over and over and over and he’d lost count of how many times he’d read it, could probably have said the entire thing word for word out loud if asked to. So it wasn’t… That. It wasn’t even close to that. The relief was immense – and there were a multitude of other feelings he couldn’t have named if he tried. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;For a long moment he sat still and stared into space, holding the delicate paper to his chest with a force that almost hurt. And then it all caught up with him, all those emotions coming in a giant wave that caused him to choke on his tears as they fought to get past the lump in his throat. But they did manage, and within seconds the wetness was running down his face, dripping rather unbecomingly off his chin.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;How could anyone possibly say such things about him? And actually mean them?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It was at that moment that he realized just how much the ridiculous, childish divide between the two halves of his class had basically ruined his life. Always having to be careful that he didn’t speak to the wrong person, forever fighting with people he didn’t even know, it was just all so horribly unnecessary!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Well, he wasn’t going to do it anymore. Screw Ryo, if he was so annoyed about it then he’d just have to go cry or something – which wasn’t like Ryo at all. Tomohisa knew very well that if (when!) he went into school today and decided not to be a part of X-group anymore he’d take a beating from… Anyone who wanted a go, really. Anybody not part of a group was fair game for anyone else, after all.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He didn’t care. He’d take it and not fight back because it just wasn’t worth the trouble.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;When Ryo came to get him some five minutes later, he was told in no uncertain terms that Tomohisa had already left. Mrs. Yamashita seemed quite confused, didn’t know why her son hadn’t waited for his friend – they always walked to school together, didn’t they? Ryo didn’t know any more than she did, and was way too pissed off to stay and talk to her. He’d be late, after all, and that just wasn’t acceptable. Neither was fucking off without a word, but hey, he’d already decided that the idiot would pay for that later. Nobody, NOBODY left Nishikido Ryo hanging – or embarrassed him in such a way.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa was the first one of his class to arrive that morning. Perfect, that was exactly what he’d wanted. He regretted that he wouldn’t be able to say sorry to Ryo for not waiting before the time came that Ryo would undoubtedly sever any connection they’d had – because Ryo was just like that. X-group was his entire life and that was obvious, despite insulting them all pretty frequently. They’d gotten used to that, anyway.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As he took a desk in the back row (careful not to take either Kei’s or Shigeaki’s) and pulled it over so that it straddled The Line, Tomohisa realized what he was about to do. He’d lose all his friends, he’d be alone at school right up until they graduated… But if his friends were really his friends, they’d still like him for who he was. Wouldn’t they? Was it possible that any of them could see past the stupid group thing and continue to associate with one refusing to follow the rules of the class, even after it had been drummed into their minds for so long?&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa sat down and sighed quietly. As soon as the next person arrived, he’d find out.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As if this was some sort of fairytale where everything just happened due to "coincidences", the door soon opened and the reason for Tomohisa's sudden decision walked in. Though he stopped right as he'd put his foot inside the threshold, this because he'd apparently seen who was there and where he was sitting. Quickly he looked over his shoulder to see if Akanishi was coming back from talking to some of his friends from one of the other classes. As he couldn't see or hear anyone getting closer right now, Kazuya hurried to walk down to the desk where Tomohisa was sitting, however not all the way up - too afraid that someone might actually come and that way find out and... it just wouldn't be good.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"What..." He looked down at Tomohisa, though avoiding to look him in the eyes. "What are you doing...?" he asked with a somewhat shaky voice - honestly scared. Scared that he wouldn't be able to convince Tomohisa to go to his seat, scared that someone from X or Y would come and make a big deal out of it, scared that- ... That it was he who had made Tomohisa decide something like this.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Of all the people..!&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa couldn't help but smile.&lt;br /&gt;“I'm sitting, what does it look like I'm doing?" he asked as though nothing was wrong, as though he'd sat here forever and nobody was going to come and beat him to within an inch of his life. Because they were. He wondered whether it would be Akanishi or Ryo to get him first... Would they take it in turns or both go at the same time? The idea of those two working together was amusing - even if it were him they were 'working on'. Which it would be. Because he was through with X-group and wouldn't be swayed now.&lt;br /&gt;At least, he didn't want to be swayed now. Whether or not he could manage not to run back to his usual seat before anyone else got there...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"You..." Nervously Kazuya looked over his shoulder again before taking another step forward. "You can't sit there..." What if Jin came now? He'd get so angry, first at Kazuya for talking to Tomohisa and then at Tomohisa because he was crossing the line and then they'd fight and everyone knew Tomohisa didn't stand a chance against Jin. "Please... don't sit there..."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Why not?" the taller one asked with nothing but curiosity in his voice, despite knowing very well why he wasn't supposed to sit there. "I like sitting here. It's a lot better than my old seat." Of course, he could always go with the other thing he'd thought of and just move to one of the other classes; but really, he didn't see how those in charge would let him, what with them already having given him one transfer thus far. Most kids didn't get any - and it was really hard to get out of E, anyway. Everyone knew E was a class full of fighters and troublemakers that nobody wanted to teach, kids who'd apparently already given up on their own futures.&lt;br /&gt;Except for him, of course. He didn't like to fight, tried to be friendly and knew what he was doing with his life. But how on earth was he going to prove that to anyone? It just wasn't possible.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As much as he was proud of Tomohisa's courage just to sit there, Kazuya couldn't help but act a little paranoid about it. Why did he want to do this? Why did he... Just like that. All of a sudden...&lt;br /&gt;Why did he want to risk getting both Ryo and Jin against him like that? He just didn't get it. Why would he... &lt;br /&gt;Tears started to form in Kazuya's eyes as he slowly walked up to Tomohisa’s desk and crouched a little in front of it, so that he'd be able to look at his face - even if not in the eyes.&lt;br /&gt;"You'll get hurt..." he mumbled. "I don't want you to get hurt... please... please go to your seat..." He looked away, not wanting Tomohisa to see how close to tears he was. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Under cover of the desk, the fingernails of Tomohisa's left hand bit painfully into the skin of his right. He was probably close to drawing blood, actually... Which was sort of stupid since there'd be enough of that once everyone else got there. But it made him feel better for the moment, if only a little.&lt;br /&gt;"I know," he said simply, lowering his voice before he continued. "Being on my own and hurting physically can't possibly be as bad as being with them and hurting in just about every other way." Well, he didn't know for sure, but it didn't seem possible that anything at all could be that bad.&lt;br /&gt;"Physical pain goes away relatively quickly. And anyway, that way I'll have something to think about all day." He smiled as he spoke. That wasn't the smartest thing ever, but then he wasn't the smartest person ever.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;This made Kazuya quickly look back at Tomohisa, a few tears running down his cheeks. How could he say something like that? It wasn't like that at all! It wasn't... like that at. All. Physical pain didn't help... it...&lt;br /&gt;Oh how he wished he could just grab a desk and join him, tell him that he wanted this exact thing. Either that or just not care. Because... because it obviously was a hard thing to do as it didn't look like Tomohisa would move or anything like that.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"It won't make anything easier..." he slowly started. "It'll just hurt you... please." Again with the please, begging him to move. "I really don't want this... please..." As he said that word for the 100th time or something, he felt as if all of this strength left him and he couldn't hold back his tears anymore. If Jin would come now, if Jin or Ryo would...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;How embarrassing. To cry like this in front of Tomohisa, but still he couldn't turn away or try to cover it up, he just couldn't. Instead he just looked down at the older one (as he'd gotten up to his feet). "... please don't do this." he begged again, not knowing what more he could say.&lt;br /&gt;This was so the wrong thing to be happening right now.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa stood up, for no reason other than that it seemed like the right thing to be doing. "No, don't..." he muttered. Moving here and staying here was so hard already, and this just made it so much harder! "Don't cry, please... It's not so bad, I'll be okay..." The worst that could happen was that they'd beat him up enough to cause injury but not enough to get him into hospital. Haha, hospital. Maybe he'd see Shige and get another beating while he was there. ...What an awful thought.&lt;br /&gt;"It's not your fault or anything, I decided to do this on my own and... If they... When they come and I get hurt then it's only me who has to suffer, right?" Hopefully a disturbance of this magnitude would mean that the two halves wouldn't fight today. Maybe instead of fighting each other they'd join together and just beat him up every day? Well at least nobody else would get hurt.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya looked at him a few moments before casting an eye over his shoulder, only to see someone who he didn't want to see - at all. Kusano Hironori stood in the doorway, looking at them. Of course, that was definitely better than Jin or Ryo but still not good at all...&lt;br /&gt;Looking back at Tomohisa, Kazuya licked his lips nervously. It wasn't as if he had the time to wait and think right? Right, so just do what you -want- for once Kazuya, and you know that- Even before his thoughts got to finish that sentence he had walked around the desk and placed one arm around Tomohisa's neck before claiming his lips.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kusano stumbled backwards at the sight. Not at all surprised by them kissing, only at the place they decided to do it at. Damn it... Damn it! Why did they have to do that in front of him?!&lt;br /&gt;He quickly looked out in the corridor, seeing no one else than Akanishi Jin coming, heading for the classroom. Oh how lovely life was sometimes. Now he had to save Kazuya's ass just because he wanted to save Tomokun's... ugh, not fair. He would so totally beat up miss princess later though.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Are you fucking insane?!" Kusano called out, starting his process called 'saving Tomokun' and hurried to walk up to the... new couple of the class. Being way too rough as he pulled Kazuya away from Tomohisa, the smallest one stumbled backwards. Kusano could however care less about that and instead grabbed Tomohisa's arm (who was probably too stunned to do anything on his own right now) and walked over to their desks.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;However they didn't quite make it to them as Jin got inside and first thing he saw was Kazuya getting up to his feet, drying his cheeks - and that immediately had him look over at Kusano and Tomohisa.&lt;br /&gt;"What the fuck did you do?" Well, that was a rather stupid question. It was obvious one of them had hurt His Kazuya. And that was enough for Jin, really.&lt;br /&gt;"Who did it?" But he wasn't unfair. He could easily take on both of them if he wanted to but he didn't. Because it wasn't fair... and besides it was morning - he was tired.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Before Tomohisa had a chance to reply Kusano had pushed the taller one towards his seat and then looked at Jin. "Well who do You think?" he replied in a cocky tone, smiling a little. "Little princess was being too loud."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Jin frowned, why the hell would Kazuya have been loud?! He wouldn't. But then again, this brat obviously didn't know that the only one who would ever be able to call Kazuya princess and get away with it was Ryo. Because really, Jin didn't beat up Ryo because of it. If some other fag decided to call him that though...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Without waiting for an answer Kusano made his way up to Jin, having both Tomohisa and Kazuya look at him, both rather shocked. Why on earth was he covering for them?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Jin grabbed Kusano by his collar and looked him in the eyes.&lt;br /&gt;"You were never a good liar, were you?" he asked, without expecting an answer - though it would have to do. He'd tried to lie and obviously failed. Stupid fucking X failure, pissing him off like this.&lt;br /&gt;Ah well, there was nothing to do but to beat him up... after receiving a punch in the stomach. Jin backed up, a liiittle bit surprised by Kusano's obvious urge to fight him. Though he didn't hesitate one second before he, with a tightened fist, aimed for the younger one's face. &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya looked at the two guys fighting by the door, why was Kusano covering for him and Tomohisa? He couldn't understand it at all... why on earth would he ever... Then his eyes fell on Tomohisa. The other X members would never do something like what Kusano just had done, not even to save one of their own members. Well, maybe Ryo for Uchi but no one else... Even though Ryo and Tomohisa were close, Ryo would never do such a thing for him. And Kusano had still to survive a month in this class and he wasn't even that close with any X member it seemed, as he sat here and there all the time. But still he decided to get himself beaten up instead of Tomohisa and Kazuya. It didn't make any sense. Though it was obviously Tomohisa he wanted to protect right? Because if he'd wanted to protect Kazuya he'd just have given Tomohisa a punch in the face. Which he hadn't so instead of letting Jin see what was going on he... saved them both from, what would obviously had been hell. It didn't sound realistic at all, unless...&lt;br /&gt;As Kazuya looked back at the fight, which Jin was obviously winning, he slowly sat down on his chair. Now, that you thought about it, it was really simple - Kusano Hironori had fallen in love with Yamashita Tomohisa.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Of course, Tomohisa himself would never come to such a conclusion – be it true or not, the guy just wasn’t nearly confident enough to assume that anyone liked him at all. Plus being very, very used to having to work for people’s affection. Even their attention was something he fought for because he hated being lonely so damn much and would accept any kind of acknowledgement. A punch in the face is still acknowledgement: they still know you’re there and are doing it to hurt you specifically, right? So for that moment you still matter to them in a way…&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The would-be traitor to X-group stood awkwardly next to his desk, his old desk with the rest of X-group, and stared at the goings-on. What on earth was he supposed to do now? He couldn’t just go back and sit at the other desk, that would be like saying Kusano didn’t matter to him at all… While they hadn’t known one another long, Kusano very much did matter to Tomohisa. They’d become friends during that time, hadn’t they? It was nice to have someone he could just be hyper with and not be looked at oddly.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He couldn’t take the blame himself either. Going and saying that he’d been the one to hurt Kazuya (closer to the truth, after all – the smaller one wouldn’t have been crying at all if it weren’t for him) would have the immediate effect of him getting beaten up by the oh-so-predictable Akanishi Jin. Because that was just what Akanishi did, used his strength to resolve anything – even if it just made things worse, which was often the case. And hadn’t Kusano separated them to save them from that? So again, it would be like saying Kusano didn’t matter.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Without thinking any more (or realizing that he’d left his bag next to the desk he’d just been sitting at), Tomohisa crossed the room toward where there was now yet more unnecessary fighting going on. This was exactly the opposite to what he’d aimed for – he wanted people to concentrate on him so that they wouldn’t have to fight each other!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Kusano!” He made no move to break up the fight because… Well, there was still that much cowardice in him. “Kusano, what are you doing?!” he demanded, looking horribly worried. What could possibly happen here but another Y-group victory? It was already happening, really, if one looked at how the fight was going. It was a small blessing that Ryo hadn’t gotten here yet, but he would soon and then what would happen? Why couldn’t everyone just get along?!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Jin pushed Kusano into the wall - which was enough for him right now to collapse to the floor, and then turned to the other X group member (who by the way was about the same height as himself). Ignoring Kusano for now, knowing he wouldn't be able to get up immediately anyway, Akanishi turned all of his attention toward Yamashita.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Gettin' his fucking ass kicked - what does it look like?" he answered, cocky as always. "Y'want some too?" Yes, he actually was nice enough to ask this. Because, let's just face it, beating up Tomohisa without a reason would make Ryo pissed (was the guy crushing on him or something?) and a pissed Ryo meant more morning fighting and if it was something Jin didn't want to deal with right now it was fighting. Especially not with Ryo because Ryo was fucking strong. Jin was stronger, of course. But he was still strong and thus not as easy to beat up as the rest of X.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As Tomohisa didn't answer Jin's question, the stronger one grinned. "Thought so." he said with a shrug and walked down to his desk next to (the still shocked) Kazuya.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kusano slowly got up to his feet once Akanishi had decided to leave him alone. With the back of his hand he dried away the blood from the corner of his mouth before sending glares Tomohisa's way. It didn't matter how much he'd known that Kamenashi and Tomohisa was dating, seeing each other, being stupid fuckbuddies or whatever, before. Seeing it with his own eyes had just hurt too damn much. Still he'd covered up for them because he obviously cared too much for his friend.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"I really don't want to talk to you right now." he said as he slowly started to walk down to his own desk, though as he was almost pass Tomohisa he stopped. "You better get your bag before Akanishi sees it, it's crossing the line." Was all he said, hoping for the taller one to listen before he made his way down to his seat and sat down. &lt;br /&gt;Leaving his bag where it was for the moment, a very confused Tomohisa just followed Kusano.&lt;br /&gt;“What? Why not?” he asked; almost pleaded, in fact. He hadn’t asked to be saved or anything and now Kusano was mad at him… Why? It just didn’t make any sense, his mind couldn’t fit it together in a logical way at all.&lt;br /&gt;“You didn’t have to do that – I never meant for you to…” Well of course he hadn’t meant it, but that was how it’d turned out. He’d just wanted to distance himself from the stupidity of 3-E’s classroom politics, but apparently that was bad for everyone and just…&lt;br /&gt;He couldn’t really do anything right, could he?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;At that point, the long-awaited (only not really) X-group leader appeared at the door – not looking happy in the slightest.&lt;br /&gt;“Yamashita!” he yelled in the direction of his (supposedly) good friend as he completely ignored everyone else and made his way across the classroom to where the bumbling idiot stood. “Why the hell didn’t you call if you weren’t gonna be there?” the older of the two demanded.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“I… I didn’t…“ stammered Tomohisa, trying desperately to deal with so damn much apparently all deciding to happen at once.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Yeah, exactly, you didn’t.” Ryo gave the other one a look of pure disgust – highly unwarranted, really. At this point he happened to take a look around the rest of the classroom, generally checking the state of things. Everything seemed to be pretty much normal, but… &lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“…The fuck?” he frowned, noticing the desk in the back and how it sat dead on the line. No one did that, ever, because it just wasn’t allowed. “What the hell’s this thing doing-“ he cut himself off as he noticed something next to it, immediately went over and picked up said ‘thing’ only to realize that it was Tomohisa’s bag.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“It’s not what it looks like!” exclaimed the tall one himself – probably not the right thing to be saying. Guilty conscience and all. Because of course it was exactly what it looked like and saying that just made it more obvious.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“What is it, then?” Ryo asked, his voice suddenly way too calm to be good for anyone. And now Tomohisa was stuck with thinking of something to say. Lying, especially on the spot, wasn’t one of his strong points.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“I, um… I just, I mean, um…”&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“You don’t need us anymore? Now that you’re not the new kid anymore that’s it, it’s all okay and you can just do whatever the hell you want?”&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“No! It’s just that-” Tomohisa didn’t get a chance to finish as Ryo, having dropped the other one’s schoolbag back on the floor, gave him a particularly hard shove on his way past – didn’t even look at his ‘friend’ as he continued talking.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;“Well, bye then.”&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Everyone in the room immediately looked up at Tomohisa and then at Ryo. Everyone, of course surprised - but the most shocked was probably Jin as he stood up and looked over at the other leader of the class.&lt;br /&gt;"Say that again?" he demanded before giving Tomohisa a disgusted look. "That fucker ain't coming over to us." he said, making his point very clear. There was no way they could have a person who didn't belong to any group in the class. It just didn't make sense and he, Akanishi Jin - the one responsible for this class, wouldn't have it that way. So either Yamashita belonged to X or he just wasn't a part of 3-E anymore.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kusano blinked and looked around before going up to Tomohisa again, before he turned to Ryo. "Nishikido-kun," he started - again trying to save Tomokun's ass. This sure was saving day or something.&lt;br /&gt;"We had a fight with princess-" That could very well have him receive a punch from Jin... or maybe even Ryo. "- that's why his bag was down there." Now would that work?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya looked up at Tomohisa, almost being a bit afraid that somehow Kusano would return to his senses and tell about what really happened and then...&lt;br /&gt;He looked down, not wanting to think about it.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Surprisingly enough, Ryo laughed as he sat down and immediately leaned right back in his chair.&lt;br /&gt;"Ne, Kusano-kun, how long have you known him?" the X-group leader inclined his head towards where Yamashita was still standing, almost as though it wasn't obvious who he was talking about anyway. "Not long, right? You weren't here for first year, or second. Y'know, once he got here he didn't talk at all for a while. Surprising, huh?" There was silence as everyone apparently waited for him to make his point.&lt;br /&gt;"What I mean is that I know him, that ungrateful fuck who thinks he can just abandon people whenever he wants." Not that he'd ever done it before, to Ryo's knowledge, but that wasn't the point. "And I know how bad a liar he is."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Ryo, please-" for the second time, Tomohisa didn't get a chance to finish his sentence. However, this time it was because Ryo decided he'd rather talk than listen.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Okay then Tomokun, tell me. Is that right? Were you fighting with the little princess?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;One second, two seconds, three seconds of expectant silence. Tomohisa felt as though the entire world were staring at him, waiting for him to say something.&lt;br /&gt;"…Y- Yes…" he tried, knowing before it'd come out of his mouth that it wouldn't work. Of all things, his honesty would condemn him? It certainly seemed that way.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Ryo laughed again, as though that were terribly funny. "You see?" he'd turned back to Kusano by this time. "We don't need anything that fucking stupid. And since They don't want it either…" The X-group leader grinned quite sadistically up at Tomohisa.&lt;br /&gt;"…Looks like you might have to piss off for good, huh?"&lt;br /&gt;Stunned and horrified at the behavior of the guy who'd up until a few minutes ago been a good friend of his, Tomohisa quietly turned and walked to the back of the classroom. He sat down at the desk he'd moved earlier and stared blankly down at his hands. Of course, he'd known it wouldn't be easy…&lt;br /&gt;And he'd probably get moved from there again in a minute and then the physical pain he'd talked about would start for real.&lt;br /&gt;It couldn't be all that bad… At least he was alive, and he didn't think they'd do enough damage to kill him.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Ryo..." Kusano looked at the leader of the X-group and then down at where Tomohisa was sitting. Now he was supposed to choose too? Come on, this wasn't how things were supposed to be! They were a group, right? Even though he might be knew he'd at least learned that much. They were a group and they were friends. Sure, Ryo might be pissed and not wanting to talk to Tomohisa, but he didn't have to! He didn't have to talk to him... he-&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Nishikido-kun." Kazuya rose from his seat and looked over at the (obviously) annoyed X-leader. Now why did he do this? He knew, he fucking knew, this would definitely cost him. Akanishi would totally beat him up once they were in private, because of this - but you know what? It didn't matter. What mattered was that Tomohisa, who had never done anything to hurt anyone, shouldn't be treated this way. He who wanted everyone to get along and thought good about everyone, even Jin. Though, this was something Kazuya wouldn't ever be able to say so instead he decided to go with things that made sense to both Ryo and Jin, them obviously being the most powerful ones.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"About the fight if you need to know, it was Kusano who couldn't allow me coughing." Lying? He was an expert when he needed to be. God knew how many times he'd lied to Jin - just to remain perfect. But he honestly didn't feel bad about it, not as long as it was for a good cause... and this most certainly was.&lt;br /&gt;"But aside from that-" he looked over at Tomohisa with cold eyes. It hurt, it hurt a lot to put up with this facade that said he hated everyone in the room except for Jin, but he had to do it - for Tomohisa, right? "He still is with X, no matter what you say."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;At that Ryo, of course quirked a brow and was just about to say something as 'the Princess' continued.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Because he won't be allowed to change classes and having someone sit there," he gave a short nod Tomohisa's way. "It's simply not happening. I don't give a damn shit about your personal relations but once a X you're always a X and thus he's not allowed to cross that line."&lt;br /&gt;Any minute now, Kazuya's mind told him. He'd collapse any minute from overworking himself this way. It hurt so much, to be this cold, to talk that way about Tomohisa, about the group in general - but hopefully he made a good point. Hopefully.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Jin, who had decided he was going to have a very serious talk with Kazuya later that night, cleared his throat and leaned back at his chair - looking at Ryo.&lt;br /&gt;"He does have a point." he admitted though and looked down at Tomohisa, that guy sure knew how to make a scene. "Having someone like that being there just won't happen. He's still in X."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"No he's not." Ryo said simply, raising an eyebrow. Oh, he knew the others would hate him for this. He knew very well that he was being unnecessarily nasty to Tomohisa, who'd always tried to be nice to everyone. That was the idiot's problem - it just wasn't possible to be nice to everyone all at the same time. The rest of X knew he could kick their asses anyway, so they could all just shut the fuck up for now. They'd forget at some point, and until then he wasn't bothered about what they thought.&lt;br /&gt;He wasn't going to let himself consider what Hiroki would think.&lt;br /&gt;"I don't care what happens to him, but he's not staying with us." This was said both decisively and dismissively, as Ryo picked up his bag and began to look inside it for something. Evidently he considered the conversation finished.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa had an odd sense of not being there - everyone seemed to be deciding his future for him, he didn't even have a hint of any sort of choice. The one he'd considered his best friend had apparently turned on him completely, and… That look.&lt;br /&gt;That awful, awful look he'd gotten from Kazuya that probably didn't mean anything at all but it just added to all the hideous wrongness of the day thus far. And it was still morning, everybody hadn't even arrived yet.&lt;br /&gt;He wasn't sure whether anyone was looking or if anyone could even see, but he just didn't care anymore. This class evidently meant a lot more to him than he'd thought… It was for that reason that this time he didn't bother hiding or running away, just tipped his head forward and allowed the tears to fall.&lt;br /&gt;He'd never be a part of anything here again, not after doing this, and he knew so. Ryo wouldn't trust him anymore, at least, and Ryo was who mattered when it came to X-group.&lt;br /&gt;Y-group didn't want him and to be honest he didn't want them either (well, all but one of them) so…&lt;br /&gt;He wondered vaguely whether he'd be able to convince his mother to homeschool him instead. Rina would complain, but she had absolutely no idea.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kusano kept looking at Tomohisa for as long as he could - which was until he saw the older one cry. At that he just looked away, quickly exchanging looks with Kazuya and in that short moment making sure the other one would know exactly how much he blamed him for this.&lt;br /&gt;Sure, it was true that Hironori had just been there for a few days and he didn't know Tomohisa all that well, but to him things didn't have to take much time. He made friends easily and he started to like people very quickly. He liked Koyama, Shige and Ryo - even though they were his new found friends he really liked them. But Tomokun? Ever since that day they'd spent the day together after school he knew for sure he liked him a bit more than anyone else. And that was exactly why he just couldn't let go of this. Telling himself that Tomohisa probably wanted to be alone, he walked up to the desk next to Ryo's and sat down. Talking about this when Y-members were present wasn't something he liked but it wasn't as if this was a matter that could wait until later.&lt;br /&gt;"Ryo..." he said in a low voice, even though he didn't have to be silent - seeing how they were three X-members in the room. But anyway, this gave him Ryo's attention (somewhat), and that was the important thing right now. "Please..." he continued, still talking in a small voice. "Please don't kick him out..."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"I didn't kick anyone out." Ryo replied absently, having once more found and opened his favorite magazine. "He left. I'm… How d'ya say it… I'm 'respecting his decision'. What kind of a guy would I be to let him go back on it?"&lt;br /&gt;Obviously a much nicer one than he currently was. But niceness didn't fit in 3-E and that complete moron Yamashita had basically just proven that. Nice guys finish last, right? And Ryo was not going to finish last. Screw that. He was a fighter - a winner, despite being unable to beat ONE person out of however many he'd beat up in the past. He'd get stronger, he'd beat Akanishi-dumbfuck and then X would be in charge.&lt;br /&gt;They didn't need stupid babbling crybaby morons like Yamashita to do that, and Ryo was all for dropping the dead weight.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"For fucks sake Ryo!" Kusano suddenly said out loud after a few short moments of silence. It was pretty obvious, that he wasn't going to take this. X wasn't X without their constant losing against Y, without all their members. Without Koyama's annoying blushing, Shige's bragging or Ryo's stuck up-ness? There wasn't no X! And Tomokun was a big part of it too! X wouldn't be if he wasn't there with his kindness, because you know - no one in X and I mean NO ONE was that nice. And every group needed someone like that and... &lt;br /&gt;Kusano rose and kicked the chair he had been sitting at before going down to the desk where Tomohisa sat, grabbing a chair from the X-side of the classroom and sat down next to him. Being very careful that he still was on X's side though.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa blinked and looked up, wetness clinging to his eyelashes and making his cheeks shine. Indeed, his vision was still blurred by the tears enough that he couldn't really see Kusano well at all.&lt;br /&gt;"You don't have to do that…" he muttered, voice cracking a little as he did. He tried to smile, knew that since he couldn't stop crying he just looked pathetic - but he had to try, because it was in his nature. "I knew… I knew this would happen…" He just hadn't known it would be so bad, or so upsetting.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya looked over at Kusano and Tomohisa, he actually wanted to join them. He wanted to go down there, sit next to him on Y's side and say that he agreed. Say that he didn't want this stupid fighting to go on anymore... but he couldn't. He wasn't brave enough to do that. He wasn't strong enough to stand up for himself like that.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Drama Queen." Jin sighed as he looked over at Tomohisa. "Move to your side already."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Now was a great time to grow a spine. Tomohisa knew he'd have to at some point if he was going to survive… It was better to get it over with now. He wiped his eyes so that he could see properly before doing anything.&lt;br /&gt;"No." he said simply, turning to look Akanishi in the eye. He'd never been the openly defiant type before - but if he continued to let them rule him he'd be a servant forever.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;. . . Jin blinked, a little surprised by Tomohisa, Yamashita fucking Tomohisa of all people, talking back at him. However it made an ironic smile grow on his lips. "Come again?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"The..." Tomohisa cursed inwardly at losing confidence after that first word. Try again. "...The whole world doesn't revolve around you." There. Simply the truth and nothing else, it couldn't even be classed as an insult. Oh, he knew that saying so would be bad for his health in the very near future - it wasn't even like him. But now he'd have to defend himself, now he couldn't hide behind Ryo anymore, and no matter how nice he was he wasn't about to let everyone just walk all over him.&lt;br /&gt;Or so he thought now, anyway. Now that he had sudden confidence... He knew deep down that he'd lose that at some point. It just didn't look good for him at all, really.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya immediately looked over at Tomohisa, why had he-&lt;br /&gt;"You son of a-!" Jin got up from his chair, losing his patience way too quickly for his own good, but didn't get far before Kazuya grabbed his arm.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Don't." he said, ordered, more than asked - thus surprising the ones present in the room. "Don't listen to him."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Jin pulled back his arm and glared at Kazuya, his behavior really started going on his nerves. What the hell was wrong with him these days? "Exactly what are you trying to do?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;The smaller one looked Jin in the eyes, not knowing what to answer. Tomohisa's sudden ability to talk to back to the strongest of the class had obviously inspired him as well, but... now what? What was he supposed to do now?!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa blinked, his eyes widening. Now this? This was very weird. Weirder than him denouncing X, weirder than Ryo turning on the one he'd spent so much time and energy protecting… But he couldn't help, could he? He couldn't do anything without giving something away, and that was most certainly not a good thing. Not now, not while just about everything else was happening.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"You give your bitch too much freedom, Akanishi." Ryo commented, sounding thoroughly amused. Well, he had to find something to do, right? Something that wasn't feeling like the lowest of the low, imagining what Hiroki would say when he found out…&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Why the hell was everyone pissing him off at the same time?! That stupid fucker Tomohisa, that even more stupid fucker Ryo and even his own fucking boyfriend?! Jin glared at Ryo but decided to ignore it and instead turn to Kazuya again. He knew that arguing with him in front of Ryo wasn't a good idea but right now he didn't have the patience to wait because lately Kazuya'd just been way too... too... not-himself!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"What the hell's wrong with you?!" he asked in a loud voice, knowing that he was causing a scene, but then again - he was Akanishi. It was okay for him to cause a scene. Sure, he was arguing with Kazuya which wasn't good but as previously stated, he didn't have the patience to think right now, this was just bothering him too much.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya backed up a little, honestly scared by Jin's sudden outburst.&lt;br /&gt;"N-nothing..." he replied and shook his head. There was nothing wrong with him! Well, except for the fact that he was betraying just about everyone one way or another. Yes, even Tomohisa. He should sit next to him, but he didn't.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Nothing my ass, Kazu." Jin replied, talking as calm as possible - though it didn't last for long. "What's the fucking matter with you?!"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya backed even a few more steps, well he tried too but couldn't as a desk was behind him. "J-Jin... there's nothing-"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;He didn't get a chance to finish that sentence though, as Jin (just as always) decided that violence was the only way to solve things and thus punched him in the face. Seeing how Akanishi was both bigger and stronger than Kazuya, the smaller one didn't have a chance to stand up against him (especially not when he wasn't ready for it) and thus fell down to the floor. Way, way too shocked to get up to his feet again.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa then completely ignored both his own common sense and Ryo's uproarious laughter, was on his feet faster than one would've thought possible and before he knew what he was doing he'd used the element of surprise (basically all he had) to shove the Y-group leader hard enough to knock him over. Normally he wouldn't have possessed the strength to do that, but righteous anger can really give you a boost, you know?&lt;br /&gt;Causing pain, however, wasn't his aim. "You!" he stared down at the still-stunned Akanishi. "How can you even count yourself as a person when you'd do things like that? The two of you have always been closer even than Ryo and Uchi - doesn't that affect you at all?!" he demanded, seemingly determined to finish his monologue as fast as possible.&lt;br /&gt;He was pretty damn certain he'd hurt for this soon - but Kazuya was more important.&lt;br /&gt;"What could he possibly have done to deserve that, especially from you? That's like… Like… I don't even know!"&lt;br /&gt;And with that he seemed to be completely finished, just stood there panting with the effort all that had taken.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya looked up at Tomohisa, just as shocked and surprised as Jin, by all this. Not that it had been completely unexpected - because it hadn't. But still... Why? Why would he ever even... why would he... Why?! It was a stupid thing to do! No one was ever about to figure out their truth and their reality where everything was great and perfect! Because no one would understand. Which was why everything just had to be normal in the eyes of others! But... "Baka..." Kazuya mumbled, knowing it didn't reach anyone's ears but his own. Of course he was touched, of course. He loved Tomohisa more for each passing second but... but... but still. This would hurt him!&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Jin got up to his feet somewhat fast once he'd (sort of) gotten over the shock. But instead of getting back at Tomohisa, he gave out a short laughter.&lt;br /&gt;"So THAT's why?!" he asked, not really expecting an answer. "You-" He laughed again and shook his head. Now this made sense. This made perfect sense!&lt;br /&gt;"You like Kazuya, don't you?" Right after he finished that sentence he burst out laughing again. It was so obvious! And of course Kazuya for some reason knew and then, being the kindhearted bitch he is he's flattered and doesn't want Tomohisa hurt...&lt;br /&gt;Oh how hilarious life was sometimes.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Unsure what to say in reply to that, Tomohisa just stared. Well, of course he did, but now both Akanishi and Ryo were laughing and… He wanted to scream and run away. Today was like a particularly bad dream he just couldn't wake up from. Still silent, he gave a weak sort of nod by means of reply - wanting very much just to ignore the stupid leader of the stupid stronger group and ask if Kazuya was okay. Because really, hitting someone like that, especially someone so close to you? Not. Cool.&lt;br /&gt;…Not that he was ever the sort of person to protect anyone. Usually he was the one being protected, actually, due to his lack of physical strength and intense dislike of fighting. In his opinion fighting was completely unnecessary - but in the face of recent events he thought he could make an exception for THIS particular asshole. Even if he was bound to lose horrifically.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;As Jin realized he'd just got an 'yes' for reply he fell silent. Now that was just too fucking weird. One of the X-group wanted to fuck HIS boyfriend?!&lt;br /&gt;"Well, sorry man." Akanishi replied as he had seemed to calm down a bit. "I'm not givin' him to you~"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kusano quirked a brow at the way Jin expressed himself. Kazuya didn't look surprised or hurt at all, but Kusano? Very surprised indeed. The strongest one was talking about Kamenashi as if he was some sort of thing he could give away or let anyone borrow as he liked. Now, Kusano didn't like Kamenashi much but for God's sake - he was a still a person.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa's eyes narrowed - any other person would've looked dangerous, but it didn't work for him. He did manage to look annoyed, though.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"You don't own him." he muttered; quietly, yet loud enough to be heard. "He owns himself and he can do what he wants. If..." he paused for a moment to gather his courage once more. He'd said more to Akanishi today than he probably had in the preceding year, and while he meant every word it was still frightening. "...If he wants to stay with you then so be it, but... You shouldn't get to decide. You don't deserve to."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Well then!" Jin, too annoyed about this to fight went over to his boyfriend and pulled him up to his feet. "Kazuya, dear." He tried hard not to laugh about this. "Who would you rather be with? Me, or him?"&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya's eyes widened at that and he looked at Jin.&lt;br /&gt;"Wh-what?" What?! How was he... ever going to be able to choose between them? He really couldn't. Despite Jin's behavior and how he treated him he loved him very much. He was so grateful to him... but in a totally different way than what it was like with Tomohisa...&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"If you want to be with that guy." Jin smiled as he said this. "I won't get mad, I promise."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Right. Kazuya mentally replied, Jin wouldn't be mad - he'd be furious. He'd be... he'd... Saying 'Tomohisa' simply wasn't an option. Still Kazuya looked at the taller one a bit away from him. He had been so... amazing. He'd been so cool, standing up for himself so much, talking back to Jin... and now here Kazuya had the best opportunity ever to do the same. But he wouldn't dare to, he didn't dare to - ever do such an amazing thing. He wasn't strong like that!! ... But if he didn't he'd let Tomohisa down... so much.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Oh dear.&lt;br /&gt;Immediately Tomohisa's eyes widened once more as he realized what was going on. Really he should've seen that coming, but somehow he hadn't and now... This was all his fault. If he'd just shut up earlier...&lt;br /&gt;Maybe it would still be okay - perhaps not for himself, but for Kazuya and that was what mattered. Tomohisa didn't have time to congratulate himself on his unfailing selflessness, instead sought eye contact with the smaller one. Once that was achieved he wasted no time in inclining his head slightly towards Akanishi in what he hoped was an obvious enough signal to say 'Jin' and be done with it.&lt;br /&gt;Tomohisa thought he'd be fine - he hadn't expected to be chosen over someone so obviously better than him, so it wouldn't have come as a surprise anyway.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;It felt like an eternity before Kazuya broke the eye contact and bowed a little to him.&lt;br /&gt;"I'm sorry, Yamashita-kun." he said, his voice being filled with absolutely nothing. "But I'm with Jin, you know. And you're from X."&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Jin grinned at that, how he loved it when Kazuya could act like this, making fun of it. Now that was His Princess.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Kazuya however wasn't as happy about it. He looked at Tomohisa for a few seconds. His face was expressionless, his eyes were blank, and his eyes when he said 'but thank you' were emotionless as well.&lt;br /&gt;He knew Tomohisa would hurt because of this, he knew he was only hurting him! All he ever did was... hurting him. Why did Tomohisa want to be with him to begin with? He only ended up hurt... which made Kazuya hurt and no one got really happy anyway.&lt;br /&gt;Those endless dreams didn't sound so bad now, did they?&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;"Oh, I know." Tomohisa smiled automatically. He'd never been a good liar, but he'd always been at least able to fake that. "That's what I thought, really. I just wanted to... To hear you say it and, um..." He hated himself for trailing off into nothing, but when one's heart feels as though it's imploding upon itself, it's rather difficult to continue cheerful speech. It didn't matter what he did, did it? Things would always be like this. He'd never be able to change anything about his miserable school life.&lt;br /&gt;"...G- Good luck to you both and I hope you, um... I hope you're..." God but it was so hard to say. "...I hope you're together for a long time..."&lt;br /&gt;And with that he turned, disappeared back to take his seat. His new seat in the back, either side of the line, since obviously Ryo didn't want him around anymore. He would not cry, not again - he wouldn't give Akanishi the satisfaction of seeing it. But god he wanted to, and it was so obvious.&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;&lt;br /&gt;Having used the excuse that he didn't feel well due to the fighting with Kusano earlier, Kazuya had said he would